Are your medical conditions/illnesses very complicated? Do you have more than the average person’s share of visit’s to medical specialists’? If you are anything like me, with a variety of high pain illnesses, then the answer to these questions is a definite “YES”. Most of us who are “complicated cases” have had experiences that most healthy people wouldn’t be able to fathom. It feels as though I’ve been treated with less respect, since I’ve become a chronic pain patient. I know this because I was once a healthy person. I was listened to and given treatments or tests to find answers. I went to a specialist several years ago, who should have known what “RSD/CRPS” is all about. A Dr. who should have known what the letters represent. He took my husband and I into his office and sat us down in small chairs in front of his huge desk. He barely glanced at the packet of information that I’d given to him. I bring it to each new Dr. appointment. The idea is to make it easier for them and for me. I don’t have to continuously re-write answers on every new patient questionnaire. The physician can flip through very clear descriptions of my medical history. This Dr. looked down at the packet of information for just a couple of short seconds. He looked up at me and said “So what is R.D.S.”? Really…. What is “R.D.S.”? I looked at my husband, gave him the signal and we got up and left. But not before I explained to that Dr. that “It is not called R.D.S., it is R.S.D. and also known as Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy and/or Complex Regional Pain Syndrome”.
I went to another specialist who told me that even though I have legitimate high pain illnesses, including systemic CRPS, my “pain meds are way out of his league”, and “there is no reason for me to do P.T. or O.T.” Then he told me if I “wanted a Cortisone injection I could have one”, but otherwise nothing he could do because “everyone over 50 has a torn meniscus”. It was so strange because the first few times I’d seen this Dr., it was right after my car accident. He did the appropriate tests and then he did surgery on my 2 torn meniscus’. But some time had passed and now I was a “chronic pain patient” with several illnesses. I felt like a Pariah, as if now I was not to be taken seriously. Next, he entered the room with a large needle. I knew what it was because I’d already had Cortisone injections to my knees s/p my MVA in 2002. I started to cry. I’d done this 7 times before, but never with a diagnosis of “severe full body/systemic CRPS”. I’d always been stoic and therefore felt respected by this particular specialist. He told me “I’ll come back when you’re not hysterical anymore”. I told him that injections can make CRPS worse. In between tears I reminded him that it hurt me very much to even blow air on or touch my knee. I just couldn’t imagine that kind of injection with this kind of pain. He left the room and came back a few minutes later. I was afraid that he wouldn’t help me again if I didn’t comply. I should have listened to my heart. But fear of a person in a position of “power” over me (or so I felt at the time), allowed me to let him hurt me even more. He had the nurse spray the Lidocaine skin numbing spray, continuously, as he put the Cortisone injection into my already burning, aching, freezing, sensitive left knee. In the end, my pain worsened and the swelling was more than when I started.
Another series of unfortunate events was when I visited several specialists for my shoulder injuries after the car accident. I kept getting told that I had a “torn Rotator cuff” time after time. But I knew that something else had to be wrong because they were saying that I had a torn Rotator cuff in both shoulders. But my left arm had a nerve pain that went down my inner arm whenever I moved a certain way. I went through this pain for over a year and through at least 5 physicians of the same specialty. I didn’t give up, not even after one of the Dr’s said to me “What part of -“I can’t fix it, don’t you understand? Is it your Brain injury?” I quickly left in tears that day (*because I do have a TBI from the MVA) and never looked back. I finally found a Dr. who listened to me and I was finally diagnosed with a ruptured biceps tendon, that required surgery with 2 screws to repair it. Someone finally listened to me and my inner feelings were correct.
Several similar incidents have happened to me and I know they’ve happened to many of you. I’d like to share one more experience; the most dangerous one for me. There was a time when I was passing out again and again. I was vomiting from all of the different medications they’d been giving me to “help” with the various pains s/p the MVA. I was in a “Six months and out” rehabilitation center. Meaning whether you get better or not, you are “kicked out after 6 months”. It was a terrible program and it is a story for another day. But what they did to me was unforgivable. Nobody was listening and no one was helping me. They forced me to swim in a pool & get dressed when I could barely button or unbutton anything for myself. They tried to blame it all on the fact that “I’d been abused”. They truly thought I was “faking” or manufacturing the fainting spells! This was the one and only time I’ve ever been accused of anything like that. They strapped onto an exercise bike while I was suffering from 2 torn rotator cuffs & 2 torn meniscus’. I tried to yell out to two physical therapists who were talking to each other. I yelled to them that I felt faint and thought I might pass out. I did faint while still strapped onto that bike. They had to call an ambulance and as I lay there waiting, there was fear in their faces. A shakiness in their voices as they told me to “lie very still”. My heart rate was only 24 bpm and my blood pressure was only 70/40. I was later told that I could have had a stroke with my stats this low. I was hospitalized and that’s when I received my first permanent dual chamber pacemaker. I was watched all night and then diagnosed with “Sick Sinus Syndrome”, a bradycardia/tachycardia arrythmia in my heart. I was also diagnosed with Prinzmetal Angina or Cornonary spasms, Long QT syndrome, Atrial fibrillation and more. After my recovery, I found a great specialist in Autonomic system failure, POTS, pacemakers and EPS. I’ve been treated by him ever since 2003. He is the best Dr. I’ve ever known and I feel very lucky to have him.
But do you see how we are not listened to or believed at times? We are sometimes not taken seriously because we are “too complicated” or just because we have many illnesses. Some Dr’s don’t want to get involved in more than earaches and sore throats. Things they can “fix”. They can’t “fix” us and so some don’t want us as patients. Many pain patients have been through bad experiences such as car accidents etc. We deserve to be respected the same as anyone else, if not, just a bit more!
If you go to a Dr. and:
- he/she stands by the door and cannot wait for you to finish speaking, before telling you “Ok, we’ll see you in 6 months, nice to meet you”.
- If you go to a physician who acts like you have “too many things wrong with you”.
- If you can tell that they think you are just too complicated and they don’t want to be involved.
- If you bring your records and all of your information and they go against your other physicians diagnosis’
- If you get put down, made fun of or called names
- If the Physician doesn’t have a clue about your illness(es), for ex: “RDS or RSD”
- If They want to ignore your other Dr’s treatments and start all over again
- If they act like you’re just too much trouble and they don’t want to be bothered
LEAVE….DO NOT PASS GO! Don’t feel that you have to finish your appointment! Many times I give my husband our secret “nod” and we just leave before the appointment is over. There’s no reason that you need to stay anyplace that you do not feel comfortable. You don’t owe any Physician your time or money, if they aren’t treating you respectfully. Remember that you’re paying for their services. If you aren’t being listened to or taken seriously, please be on your way. It doesn’t matter how many Dr’s you visit until you find the one that finally “clicks”. Don’t give up; there will be one that finally “gets it” and understands your issues. There will be that one to finally help you