A Free Country?


My USA friends that are ill, like me…. we will not have fun with socialized medicine! Nothing great_ is free! It’s an illusion, because your taxes will go up by a lot and you pay for your care (& everyone else’s) in other ways. It’s not free! You must work hard in life and pay for what you get. When I worked at the hospital you only had to pay five dollars a month to prove that you were trying! They never went after anybody. You can say whatever you want about the news source but Look again because it is actually the NHS & the Royal college of OB/GYN’s that provided this information.
*****NHS Patients Waiting More Than One Year for Non-Coronavirus Treatment Highest Since 2008: https://www.breitbart.com/europe/2020/11/12/nhs-patients-waiting-more-year-non-coronavirus-treatment-highest-2008/

Let me explain further. I have friends that have been like family to me. There are some in Scotland & some in England. Here are a few stories they told us in person.

  • They personally have waited 18 months for an MRI & 12 months for a CT scan
  • One friend in Scotland (age 55yrs), got cancer and was all set to receive chemotherapy. They showed up for their first treatment & they were told that “the NHS & the Dr they were assigned; decided their treatment was going to be too expensive.” The patient was afraid and asked more questions. They were told when they do the math for their age of 55, & the cost of treatment, it was too expensive. They couldn’t go anywhere else because they are assigned districts. They could pay privately, but most people (as in my friends case) don’t have the money to pay for private health care. She passed away within 10 months to a year from breast cancer.
  • Another true story from one friend in UK, is about when he got false teeth at age 19 yrs, due to gum disease. The false teeth/dentures, didn’t fit well and gave him sores over and over again. They would try to fix them but refused a new set. Finally at approximately age 40, he had enough money to go to a private dentist (NOT the NHS). He got a great set of new and great-fitting dentures. The sores never returned once he got dentures with private health care
  • Another true story is about my friend in UK. She got ill & diagnosed with a bladder infection & pneumonia. This was in or around 2012-13. She was hospitalized. It was a long holiday weekend in UK. She was catheterized and left for hours. Only to be given antibiotics and sent home. She was sent home with a catheter inside of her (she’d never had one before and didn’t feel comfortable at all). They told her “because it was a holiday weekend, there’d be no one to care for her in the hospital.” She was told to return on Tuesday and they’d admit her most likely. She got much worse and finally had to get an ambulance to take her to Emergency. There she sat until Tuesday anyways.
  • I’ve seen people that I know in USA, say they think “free medical” or Socialized medicine “would be great”. Two of these people have kids with Down Syndrome. I hate to break the news to them, but with socialized medicine, they think these beautiful tiny humans, do not deserve a chance at life and happiness. They have very few instances of Down Syndrome now in UK. The reason being that they suggest abortion or as I call it, Eugenics!
  • Any lives that don’t look worth living, on paper; they want, encourage or allow death instead of helping these people.
  • Also, if you are over 55, the majority of the times, you are not worth saving or helping, according to NHS.
  • Lastly, you have zero choices. Everything is dictated to you. You lose all control over your own treatment options, according to how valuable some human being decides that you are, or you are not!

I’ll leave you with this today. Some of you made your choice for President of the USA, because you hate or don’t like President Trump. You don’t like his “orange skin color”? Aren’t you the same ones shouting out about racism? The same people screaming about how nobody should be judged by the color of their skin?  These same people are the ones who despise DJT, because he has orange color skin (in their words & opinions, not mine). Maybe you decided not to vote for him because he’s a regular guy and not a politician? Or maybe because you don’t like his Tweets??

Well, he wouldn’t have been forced to Tweet, if the press had been a fair Press or had provided balanced news! They fabricated just about everything in order to get money and power! He had to Tweet in order to reach out and talk to the American people! The “non essential workers” is what they called some of us, during this C0v1d19 pandemic. Also, he wanted to reach the “regular” people & families, the Patriots, the Truckers, the Bikers and both blue & white collar workers who added up to about 72 million people in USA, who voted for President Donald J Trump.

No this is not fair! This is not what America is supposed to be about. We should not be known as the looney country with “Hamm3r & Scor3ecard”, which spoiled our entire election! We should not want to be known as the country who cheated and lied to get the mean orange man out of the White House! President Trump is a human being first!! He’s our President, yes, but if you sift through all of the lies and BS that all of the fake news put us through these past 4 years; you’d see it! You’d see that he’s a highly intelligent man. Also he is a loving & respected husband, father and grandfather! Most of all he loves our country and he does truly care about the people living in it.

If you just look at my article from a few months ago, called ” A Sad New Existence” you’ll see a long list of things he got done for our country just between January through March of 2020. If you cut through the crap of the fake news media, you’ll see that he’s signed at least 3, maybe 4 now, Peace Agreements between Israel and Arabic countries. Nobody has ever been able to do that! He’s got a huge list of accomplishments; more than any other President in history! If you would take the time to go and look for yourself on The official website of the White House, you’ll see for yourself.

These are not conspiracy theories. These are true facts. There is much to be looked at and corrected with this recent election. We must have a full audit of our election! The fraud must be & is being exposed! The cheaters must be held accountable! We need to stay a free country, more than you or your child, needs free college classes!

If  Joe were to become the true President elect & then the true & rightful President, I guarantee you that he will be not in that position for long! Their entire goal is to get him to help the radical left & deep state, to get elected. They used his kind looking little old man smile to obtain power of over us and our country! Then you can mark my words, Kama1a will then be President soon afterwards. We are on our way then, one step further to Socialism/Communism. She is the most extreme radical progressive like the squad! Then… next… we will no longer be a Constitutionalized free America. We will be puppets under the control of the C C P regime & the likes of S0rr0s and B1ll Gates.

Look at the photo on left: MI Govern0r Wh1tm3r telling people if they want to be able to go to church and Stop wearing masks etc, then they should vote for J0e!! But J0e says on the right hand side, the first thing he’s going to do is make a “mask mandate” for years!! That’s Just disgusting!!

Silent No More


I try to never judge anyone. In fact I’m open hearted/minded & I support most everyone. Also, I do have friends and family who have different opinions than mine. I would not stop being friends with someone or disconnect my friendship with them, because they have a different point of view. This has been a been a horrible time for most everyone in the world right now. We each have the right to our opinion & to believe what we believe. If you don’t like me anymore because of what I believe- then I’m sorry. But I’m the same person I’ve always been I’ve not changed. I live in the USA & we have more freedoms than most any other country. I live here & I’m proud that I’m allowed to exercise my right to choose. I’m finding out who my true friends are. I feel closer to God more than ever before. I’m at peace with myself and that’s what matters most. I’ve been “afraid” to post this but I want to, because my husband & I made it. We are silent no more!

#Silentnomore

How The Mandates Are Affecting The Real People


I asked for permission to print this grieving Mother’s letter to the Democratic Michigan Governor. I wanted to share this because Many Michiganders & others are feeling oppressed now. Mostly because of COVID19 restrictions for some, but not for everyone. While some people who are oppressing the average citizens are allowed to have elaborate funerals; the “regular people” are only allowed 10 people at their beloveds funerals. I guess politicians are immune from COVID19, because I saw that one representative from Georgia had a funeral with approximately 500 people inside of one building. They were not social distancing and not everyone was wearing a mask. Our own Governor in Michigan was physically in the middle of a large protest & though she had a mask on; the two people in the photo with her, were not wearing masks. They also were not social distancing. What do the politicians know, that they’ve not told “We the People”?There was the Mayor of Chicago along with our own Speaker of the House, who got to have hair appointments, when nobody else was allowed to do that! Madam Speaker was not even wearing the mask that she wants to mandate for everyone else in society! But again, they must know something about that smart & sneaky COVID19, that they’re not letting the rest of us in on?? Without further ado, let me share this mother’s heartbreaking story:

I sent this letter about my 20yr old son’s covid funeral to whitmer. I know that I won’t get a response but maybe someone on her staff will see it and then mention it to her.
Dear Governor Whitmer,

My 20 yr old son Dominic was killed in a hit and run while riding his skateboard on September 3.
As you can imagine my husband, younger son and myself are just devastated.
Our family, friends and community are also grieving for the fine young man that we all lost.
Dominic was an eagle scout in his 3rd year at MSU in the agriculture business school. Dominic was known for his sense of humor, respectful nature and always helping others especially his friends that he always pushed to better themselves. Dominic was taking notes in his journal about self improvement that we made copies for all his friends so that hopefully they can also focus on always self improving.

The funeral home viewing is a parents worse nightmare. Because Dominic was so loved there was an extraordinary amount of people there to pay their respects.
The funeral home was very professional following your guidelines so I do not hold them responsible for a difficult day made worse by your strict guidelines.
Were were only able to have 10 people at a time in the building which my immediate family far exceeds that number. We were given the option to place the casket in a doorway so that everyone could pass the casket from the outside to view him but I refused this because we would be forced to put up netting around Dominics body so that the flies and bees would not attack him. It felt so very wrong especially since I would not be able to touch him throughout the day.
The line wrapped around the building with people waiting in the unexpected cold weather for up to 2 hours. Some people ended up leaving because they felt that they didn’t want to take up space from the closer family and friends.
At some point we were told that it was best that we go outside to greet the guests just to speed up the line. It was cold and I certainly wasn’t dressed for it but I was just so grateful to all that came.
The mask mandate that you issued was very difficult for us to recognize our guests some that I haven’t seen in years.
Also 2 of his very good friends could not come to the funeral because they had covid but no symptoms.
The funeral home could not allow us to have food in the lower level rooms typically set up for families to grab a quick bite. I am not sure if it was your mandate but they told us that they could not risk someone getting covid from the shared food.
We were there from 1-9 surviving on water and tic tacs. We had plenty of food and snacks sent to us but it was all forced to sit in the car while we were forced to greet our guests outside in the cold and very hungry with our masks on.
We had the option of having the luncheon at the funeral home but would be forced to serve box lunches which I refused because I come from an Italian family that believes food is for comfort and boxed lunch seemed very cold.
We had a difficult time finding a restaurant to accommodate our big gathering because of your restaurant restrictions. We were forced to have it at our house. It was set up just like a graduation party with tent, tables, chairs and caterer and the hundreds of other items needed for a big group. I believe you just had a graduation party for your daughter so now imagine having only 3 days to put it together during a time right after the death of your child.
I felt compelled to tell you my story because your mandates have serious implications on people’s lives. Your “science” has not been able to justify all your mandates. While I am very upset with you and your “political science”, I still would not wish upon you what we had to endure during our darkest hour. I still would never want you to have to bury your child with all these restrictions set on you while George Floyd had such privilege for his numerous funerals with little restrictions. I would never want you to feel the hunger and cold during a long day of greeting your masked guests that you could not recognize while there is a picture of the governor not social distancing next to 2 unmasked BLM protesters. I would never want you to have to decide if your child should be displayed outside with netting surrounding their beautiful face just to comply with your mandates while being told rioting is ok but not dignified funerals for loved ones. I would never want you to be forced to have the funeral luncheon at your house where no one is fully prepared to accommodate all your family and friends in such a very short amount of time while being told rioters and looters have not had plenty of time to plan their destruction.
Even after having to endure your restrictions for our sons funeral we were forced to be thankful that we didn’t have to have a drive by funeral like so many families before
While you and I are clearly on different political sides, I still would not want to see you suffer any more than you already would be after the death of your child.
Our faith is strong and we believe that Dominic is in heaven for all the good he provided to those around him. Not sure if you have faith but I do believe that when we die we will have to answer to God for our actions and motives and I hope that for your sake you are very comfortable explaining to God your actions and motives that have had real devastating effects on alot of people for the sake of your politics.
Sincerely,
Gabriella Duhn

It’s Ok not to be ok


Hello Luvs,

I found this very awesome post on Facebook and it’s from a page called “It’s Okay Not To Be Okay.”

I have given them the credit for this beautiful piece. The credit for this beautiful woman’s *picture below, goes to the person who took it; and she is also named below.

This woman’s outlook on life, took my breath away! It made me cry! We all need to think more like she does!! When I become sad bcz of chronic illnesses and pain, I’m going to think of this amazing woman! I’m posting her story here, in hopes that it will also help you to be more positive. Especially during rough times such as political unrest and a pandemic! Let’s keep in mind what truly matters.

This 92-year-old, petite, well-poised and proud lady, who is fully dressed each morning by eight o’clock, with her hair fashionably coiffed and makeup perfectly applied, even though she is legally blind, moved to a nursing home yesterday. Her husband of 70 years recently passed away, making the move necessary.

After many hours of waiting patiently in the lobby of the nursing home, she smiled sweetly when told her room was ready. As she maneuvered her walker to the elevator, I provided a visual description of her tiny room, including the eyelet sheets that had been hung on her window. “I love it,” she stated with the enthusiasm of an eight-year-old having just been presented with a new puppy.

“Mrs. Jones, you haven’t seen the room …. just wait.”

“That doesn’t have anything to do with it,” she replied. “Happiness is something you decide on ahead of time. Whether I like my room or not doesn’t depend on how the furniture is arranged, it’s how I arrange my mind. I already decided to love it. It’s a decision I make every morning when I wake up. I have a choice;

I can spend the day in bed recounting the difficulty I have with the parts of my body that no longer work, or get out of bed and be thankful for the ones that do. Each day is a gift, and as long as my eyes open I’ll focus on the new day and all the happy memories I’ve stored away, just for this time in my life.”

She went on to explain, “Old age is like a bank account, you withdraw from what you’ve put in. So, my advice to you would be to deposit a lot of happiness in the bank account of memories Thank you for your part in filling my Memory bank. I am still depositing.”

And with a smile, she said: “Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred.

2. Free your mind from worries.

3. Live simply.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less, & enjoy every moment.

*Photograph by Karsten Thormaehlen

My Deaf Journey


I was mild HOH growing up. At first my teachers had me sit at front of the class.  When I entered upper elelmentary,  I was given a hearing test at school and ended up having to undergo 5 ear surgeries, starting at age 5. Like many parents, mine just wanted to “fix” me. Most of my hearing loss in the beginning, was from reoccurring ruptured eardrums, repeated head trauma and abuse.

As a preschool age little girl,  I remember being curled up in a ball, in a chair or in my bed, rocking and crying uncontrollably because the pressure in my ear was so painful. I had horrible ear infections, one after another constantly. My mother would look at me as a 4 year old child and tell me “don’t worry, once your eardrums rupture, you will feel better”. Of course, this is true; but why not get help for me right away?  Why not take me to get help before the ear infections get to the point of rupturing my eardrums? Once the school nurses detected a hearing problem in elementary school, then I was taken to an ear, nose and throat Doctor. I had numerous Myringotomies (ear tube surgeries) between the ages of 7 and 12 years old.

When I was 11 years old, I met a Deaf family. They taught me so much about Deaf language/culture/history & community.  They took me to their residential Deaf school, Deaf football games and to Deaf events. I learned my first ASL vocabulary from that Deaf family. I was at their home constantly because they let me babysit and I became immersed in Deaf community and culture.  I had to learn quickly because they were a full ASL family.  Later on, I became an ASL Interpreter after I graduated college. I was a hospital/medical and educational Interpreter. I also interpreted for my Alma Mater & did that for several years. I continued working as a University classroom Interpreter, part time, even after becoming a Mother.

In 2002, I was in a catastrophic car accident. I suffered multiple injuries/surgeries & a traumatic Traumatic Brain injury (TBI). My hearing & vision declined. I diagnosed with a Convergence insufficiency in my eyes, halo vision and Extreme Dry Eye syndrome (because my eyelids don’t close 100% due to the head trauma & stroke). I got special glasses with prisms in them. I also had to get a pacemaker because my brain would not tell my heart what to do. It was at that time that I got my 1st set of hearing aids.

As time went on, my hearing declined more .  In 2014-2016, I had repeated double ear  infections again.  I lost more hearing. Later in 2019 -May, I went in for new hearing aids and they found an auditory tumor called “Cholesteatoma” (Information regarding Cholesteatoma & information regarding Cholesteatoma ). It had “eaten away” at my 3 ear bones/ossicular chain and mastoid bone. My eardrum was torn badly. I lost most of the hearing in my right ear and there’s severe loss in the left. I was also diagnosed with Tympanosclerosis (Information regarding Tympanosclerosis) or hardening of the eardrum. *{There’s more information about this below}.

I’ve been communicating with ASL & have been a part of the Deaf community since 1973! During college, I used to go every Thursday evening to the D.A.D. (Detroit Association of Deaf) bowling events. I had a Deaf boyfriend for quite awhile during those years & hung out in the dorms with my 16 Best friends; who happened to also be the Deaf students. We had so much fun and got into a tiny bit of fun trouble! Lol…

Later, I joined 2 ASL drama groups; after moving in 1982 to Arizona. In one group, “Silent Impressions Productions”, we had costumes & choreography. Tickets were sold & people paid money to see our show “Nights on Broadway ASL”, at Arizona State University. I was also in a Christian ASL Drama group at the ASU Neumann Center. We did ASL Christian song covers & Interpretive dance. That group was called “Silent Praise”.

I had originally moved there in order to work with Deaf PRE-school children! We taught the children during the day & in evenings, weekly; we taught their parents/families ASL. I KISSFIST (love) that job! After a year & half, I missed my friends & my home & so I returned to Midwest!

After coming back home, I did a little modeling & went back to Interpreting at my Alma Mater. I married & had 2 baby daughters. Fast forward to 1991, & I had to take my baby daughters & myself to a domestic violence shelter because I had been abused again for the past 8 years. As long as I felt that my daughters were safe, I stayed in the home. Once I saw my ex husband, kick our dog in front of our daughter, I knew it was time to leave that marriage. No matter how scary it may be “out there in the world as a single Mom working full time”- it was more scary to stay & continue on that way.

After I served him with divorce papers, I was offered a job within 3 days, as a school district interpreter! It was my dream job! Then later, I got a job (to get better health insurance) at a University hospital. I was a secretarial & clerical “float”. I learned 500 people jobs and worked all over the hospital wherever needed. I also wore a pager and was called to interpret all over the hospital. I got to keep interpreting for the school district on 1/2 day Weds. & on Fridays.

In approximately 1994, I made a new friend. She is Deaf & she introduced me to her two daughters & to her friends, who are also a part of the Deaf community. My daughters became good friends with her kids! She and I are still good friends today in 2020.

I had started a “Sign language club” at my daughters’ elementary school. I did it for my friend , her daughters & my own kids too. I also interpreted for her daughters’ IEP’s.

In 1997- our Sign language club “Silent Impressions”(yes…named after my old choreography/ASL group in AZ), was invited to Madonna University (& other venues) to put on a little ASL performance. It was a great time in my life! I was given an award from the school district, called “Volunteers in public schools Award- (VIPS award)”. It was for my volunteer work. I had been the elementary schools’ jump rope team coach. But I also helped: in classrooms, during field trips, in the the library & initiated & ran the Sign Language club. I was honored, but my reward was not that; it was giving inclusiveness to my friend. It was also about educating our children & many others & giving them a good experience along the way, in their lives.

I Re-married & finally to my soul mate, in 1997. We have been happily married for 23 1/2 years. But in 2002, we were involved in a catastrophic car accident. A man drove through a red light. Luckily, my husband only got a few bruises. I was hurt badly & unconscious for 30 minutes. I suffered a TBI, 11 surgeries (along with multiple painful diagnostic tests) & many injuries. These included more hearing loss & vision lowered due to Convergence insufficiency & halo vision. I ended up with 9 years of PT/OT and 3 years of brain injury rehabilitation. I got my first pair of Analog hearing aids, from my ENT & audiologist. Lastly, I had a stroke, a heart attack and a pacemaker! I was diagnosed in 2007, with the most painful nerve autoimmune illness known to mankind, “RSD aka CRPS” (#47 out of 50 on the McGill pain scale). The RSD/CRPS led me to several other connected & painful health issues (EDS-4, Chiari, Gastroparesis, S.I.B.O., Dysautonomia/POTS, Atrial fibrillation & Sick Sinus Syndrome (a heart condition) . I had to go on disability & have been living with mobility aids, including leg braces (AFO’s), loft-strand crutches, a walker & wheelchair etc.

But nothing has been as scary to me as the diagnosis I received after my hearing started declining more and more from 2014 to 2019. I actually was Hard of Hearing and I did fine with ASL and hearing aids. Yes, I can speak but I prefer ASL. I was diagnosed with an auditory/brain tumor called “Cholesteatoma”. It destroyed my 3 hearing bones and my inner ear. I had to have a Tympanomastoidectomy with oscillar chain & Mastoid bone cut & cleaned-out. I did receive a prosthetic Anvil (Incus) earbone also. But I was also diagnosed with “Tympanosclerosis”(Information about Tympanosclerosis & Hearing loss). This means that my eardrums are hardening & will continue. With this diagnosis, added scar tissue & the tumor (which has a 50% chance to return); my hearing will continue to decline. For now, my right ear has severe mixed hearing loss and Left is high moderate/severe sensory neural hearing loss. I also have pulsating Tinnitus. I received new Signia hearing aids in May 2019 and they are a tool. But since the auditory tumor surgery 7-26-19, I identify as Deaf instead of HoH. I belong to Michigan Association of the Deaf & a few online Deaf groups.

I have my own Facebook group called “ASLExpress” & a Facebook page called “ASL SuzyQ”, where I advocate and share Deaf history, culture and ASL. I also have My YouTube Channel @ASLSuzyQ and My Instagram @ASLSuzyQwhere I share Deaf memes, ASL songs & other fun stuff, including Deaf experiences & stories. *Then there is my TikTok page where it is just all in good fun! My TikTok Channel/Page

Link to “This Is Me” in ASL by Keala Settles (from Greatest Showman)

This was me a year or more after the
catastrophic car accident in 2002

This is me, post-op, after my auditory
surgery 2019-July

This T-shirt was a gift from the parents of kids

This is me at my “Silent Praise” group

A newspaper article honoring me for the
VIPS Award

My class with me at Deaf pre-school

Stop The Insanity: The Case Regarding Dr. Kline, M.D.


A woman on Twitter, made a formal complaint against Dr Thomas Kline, MD. He’s a licensed medical physician who treats many chronic pain patients. He has been a courageous & outspoken advocate for the pain community. His Tweets are based on facts & backed up with research. He voluntarily gave up his DEA license because he’s suddenly being investigated for Tweeting that 99.5% of people who are prescribed opioids , do not become addicted! How does a Dr. become under investigation for stating a fact? One that has proof from research??!!

This is insane! How can a random person on Twitter go and make a formal complaint against a Dr . they’ve never known? A physician whose services they’ve never sought out or ever used? ? No one she knows has gone to him & no one has ever been hurt by him!!
His information is NOT emotional, but based on facts and professional research! Her complaint is an EMOTIONAL one!! Yes, with all due respect, it’s sad that she lost her son to HEROIN overdose! But what in the world does a Heroin addiction & his death, got to do with easing the suffering for millions of high impact chronic pain patients?
She’s looking for someone to blame! Her son had a Heroin addiction (an illness of its own) we know that for sure. Maybe he had a genetic predisposition to addiction? But just maybe she’s wants to blame someone else for her sons actions or someone’s inactions? Our Dr Kline is a pillar of ethics and knowledge in the pain community).
Can everyone please get it straight?? Opioids that are prescribed for legitimate high amounts of daily chronic pain, have only about 1-3% to do with addiction!
Someone respectfully tell Ms. Joy, that hurting and “killing” innocent people (who live with horrible A.S., Cancer, RSD/CRPS, Pancreatitis & so many other horribly painful illnesses) will not bring back her son!

The facts are these:

1: Suboxone has horrible side effects (Opioids have very little)! You can’t have an emergency surgery while taking Suboxone because it blocks the anesthetic! It takes about 2 weeks to get out of your system! Maybe this woman wants a traumatic surgery without anesthesia? But most sane people do not want that! You cannot stop taking Suboxone by weaning off slowly (as you can with opioids)! It fights against you with horrific pain and worse effects! I have interviewed people who were given Suboxone inpatient and on it only 6 weeks! It took them more than 6 months to get off if it, and they had horrible & painful side effects from trying to get off of it! Suboxone is a money making scheme! The people involved with the creation, production & distribution of Bupenorphrine/Suboxone, want to rid the world of the “evil” opioids and make Suboxone the only drug for pain! ITS NOT EVEN FOR PAIN!! It’s supposed to be a slightly helpful but weak analgesic for helping those who ARE ADDICTED…& WHO HAVE SOME PAIN!

2) How can a person just make an outrageous claim and the USA government take it seriously & without any proof at all!!??? HOW did this happen?? How did we get here? (I’ll give you 2 reasons starting with “A” & ending with “K”…& also PROPaganda! How does a Dr who is good, kind and cares about the suffering of his patients, get to a point where he surrenders his DEA license that enables him to prescribe some medications treat his patients?? What if “they” decided insulin was addictive to 3% of population? Are they then going to let all Diabetics suffer?

3) Dr Kline uses facts and research and this accuser is someone who I feel is looking to blame someone else! Let’s see what role the others who lived with and around her son had in his life, his addiction & his death, instead of blaming an innocent Dr who is brave and still cares about humanity!

3) most importantly: If someone is taking a pain medication for high amounts of daily high impact & never ending pain, and this medicine (an opioid) helps to enhance this persons life, without any harm to anyone or anything-THAT IS NOT ADDICTION! If a CPP is getting some relief, getting meds on time, taking them as prescribed & they’re given a chance at some semblance of a life (& they are living it), then that medicine should be not only allowed but prescribed absolutely, without any thought of this craziness!

***Go Ahead & Google “FDA-2012-P-0818: It states this:


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And lastly, just a few more interesting articles regarding the subject of Opioids, within this Blog

We Are Broken But Strong!


This is for my fellow chronic pain warriors (& me)…fighting the ignorance of those who hold the power to help Cpp’s but they’re pushing massage & other complimentary therapies instead! Opioids clearly help some of the pain community. Let our Drs choose what works best for each individual.

We are in pain & we may be “broken”-but we are worthy, we are strong & we are beautiful! Don’t ever give up! No matter how many people try to put you down or try to “break” you even more!!

Link to my YOUTUBE channel at ASLSuzyQ

Please feel free to follow me on YouTube @ASLSuzyQ for ASL(American Sign Language) song covers & to learn about Deaf History & Deaf culture.

HERE ARE SOME LINKS TO MORE OF MY ASL SONG COVERS ABOUT OUR JOURNEYS WITH ALL DIFFERENT KINDS OF PAIN-BUT BEING STRONG THROUGH IT ALL!

1) “This is Me” (from Greatest Showman)

“This is Me” by Keala Settles

2) “Speechless” (from Aladdin)
Speechless from Aladdin

3) “Keep Holding On” by Avril Lavigne

Keep Holding On by Avril Lavigne

4) “Fight Song” by Rachel Platten
“Fight Song” by Rachel Platten

5). “We All Bleed The Same” by Mandisa
We All Bleed The Same by Mandisa

6) “Into the Unknown” from Frozen 2 by Idina Mendel/Aurora
Into the Unknown by Idina Mendel & Aurora from Frozen2

7). “I Dare You” by Kelly Clarkson

“I Dare You”by Kelly Clarkson

8). “Piece By Piece” by Kelly Clarkson

“Piece by Piece” by Kelly Clarkson

9). “Stand Up” by Cynthia Erivo

“Stand Up” by Cynthia Erivo

10). “Broken & Beautiful”

“Broken & Beautiful” by Kelly Clarkson

There are many more ASL cover songs for when you need to feel strong! Don’t ever give up!

*Please feel free to read a small part of my story in the paragraphs beneath each video

Accessibility A Legal Right


Hey Everyone!

This is a great article from Rikki Poynter and it hits home with me, too! Many of my friends who live with either Deafness/Hearing loss &/or disabilities requiring the use of wheelchair,walker or cane etc, may feel a connection to the stress that Rikki Poynter shares in this article.

Some of us are feeling also the stress of not have accessibility to proper medical care for our high impact chronic pain illnesses. This has been constant since the CDC Guidelines were implemented in 2016, without any pain physicians present at the discussions.

I wanted to share this article because I can feel for her experience and so many people don’t “get it”. Here’s the article: http://www.rikkipoynter.com/articles/event-accessibility

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Testimony From A Pain Patient, Re: Suboxone And Bupenorphrine


This is an email that I received from a chronic pain patient, Chuck Malinowski. He wanted to let me know about his experience with Suboxone/Bupenorphrine. He asked me to share it, after he had read my 2-3 articles about these harsh drugs that are being forced upon chronic pain patients at this time. The side effects from these partial opioid agonists, are much worse than our average opioids. While their analgesic effects are very low. They don’t do much in lowering the high impact pain that many people with long term, painful chronic illnesses live with. They have, however been proven to take the edge off of some lower pain illnesses in drug addicts who have to take it bcz they are unable to take “regular” opioids. The data suggests that it only really helps a little bit with addicts who need a bit of pain relief.

All of my research is backed up and linked to articles and research. Some is straight from the manufacturer of Suboxone/Bupenorphrine:

1) Regarding Bupenorphrine & Suboxone

3) About Suboxone, Bupenorphrine & Naloxone

4). More About Suboxone & Bupenorphrine

Here are some links to more articles where I researched information and came to these conclusions:

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(*This is where I got some of this information):

1. https://www..com/suboxone-creators-shocking-scheme-to-profit-off-of-heroin-addicts

2. https://www.drugs.com/suboxone.html

Articles that Explain The Bad effects of suboxone, bupenorphrine etc.

1.  Why Suboxone Treatment Can Be Harmful

2. The Suboxone Conspiracy

3. the ugly truth about suboxone withdrawals

***Below is an article straight from a patient:

Here is one Testimonial:

“Absolutely do not let your doctor put you on buprenorphine.
DO. NOT. DO. IT.
Unless it is an absolute life-threatening medical emergency, do not ever allow anyone to put you on either buprenorphine or Suboxone, which is a medication made with buprenorphine and even worse, and much more expensive.
Buprenorphine causes such a severe, and rapid physical dependency that after only using a comparatively small dosage, 16mg per day, for a single month it will take you a minimum of four, but probably five or six months of absolute hell to get off of.
This is not a medical opinion, or medical advice, this is the reality of what I am now living with, and have been for more than 10 weeks.
I was put on buprenorphine when my implanted pain pump ran out of morphine sulfate and I went into severe acute opiate withdrawal.
It was basically an emergency situation, the level of medication for my pain pump was the oral equivalent of 160mg of morphine a day, it was severe opiate withdrawal.
I did not have an addiction to opiates because this was intrathecal morphine – intrathecal delivery is when the medication is delivered in liquid form directly into your spinal column – but my body had a tremendous physical dependency.
Even so, I seriously regret being put on buprenorphine even if it was on emergency basis.
I was on 16mg of buprenorphine per day for five weeks after getting out of the hospital following treatment for severe acute opiate withdrawal.
The treatment was being put on Suboxone, later changed to just straight buprenorphine.
Within three weeks I started experiencing severe migraine headaches, ear aches, severe abdominal pains, diarrhea, severe sleep disturbances in the form of horrific nightmares – nightmares so bad I was afraid to go to sleep.
I also experienced drastic changes in body temperature, one minute I felt like I was roasting alive, the next minute I felt like I was freezing, sometimes I felt both at the same time.
I have been trying to get off of buprenorphine for 10 1/2 weeks now. I have been using every trick in the book to manage the horrible withdrawal symptoms. Herbal supplements, herbal teas, detox supplements, vitamins, OTC medications, etc.
And the withdrawal symptoms are truly horrible, even when simply reducing your dosage by 25%. It’s just as hard to cut your dosage from 5 mg a day to 4 mg a day as it is to cut your dosage from 16mg a day to 12mg a day.
This means that the closer you get to 0mg a day the harder it is to reduce your dosage, because you have to keep doing it by a relatively small percentage, 20 or 25% day over a period of two or three weeks.
It is so bad it gets to a point where you have to cut from 2mg per day, to 1mg per day – if you can even tolerate that big a cut at that point – to 1/2 mg per day, to 1/4 mg per day, to 1/8 of a milligram per day – and, according to my doctor, it can take weeks to do it. It took me 3 1/2 weeks of working at reducing my dosage from 6mg a day to 4mg a day before I could tolerate 4mg a day. It was extremely difficult, and painful every step of the way, and even so, I am suffering horribly.
Today is day number seven at 4mg a day. The last week has been unimaginably horrible – the entire process is unimaginably horrible – today is horrible, and I expect that I will feel like this for another week or two before I am stable at 4mg a day. 
Once I am stable – comfortable – at 4 mg a day I can try to start cutting my dosage to 3mg a day, and the entire nightmare process described below starts all over again, although in truth it never really stops it only gets less horrible, until you try and make your next dosage reduction.
At times feeling like I am burning alive, I feel like I am on fire inside and out. I frequently feel like somebody has put some horrible mind-bending drugs in my drinking water. Uncontrollable shakes and tremors. Uncontrollable whole body spasms were every muscle in my body suddenly goes completely rigid. Diarrhea. Severe sleep disturbances from absolutely horrible nightmares – my neuropsychologist tells me that nightmares are very common with buprenorphine. And you only have the nightmares if you’re lucky enough to be able to sleep in the first place. Or if you can even stay asleep because you’re going through such drastic changes in body temperature that you are frequently waking up and turning the fan on, or turning the fan off, or getting rid of the blanket, or pulling the blanket back on. 
Or, if you try and reduce your dosage a little too much, a little too quickly you wake up drenched in sweat with your clothes soaked through.
If you try and reduce your dosage a little too much, a little too quickly all of the above mentioned withdrawal symptoms are magnified several times over and it literally becomes a living hell. It can be as bad as full-blown acute opiate withdrawal from a high level of opiates. These are both things that I have lived through, so I know this from personal experience. 
Simply trying to get off of buprenorphine by slowly reducing my dosage over the last 10 1/2 weeks at a time has unquestionably been the single most difficult, painful and horrific experience of my life, aside from more than 10 years of Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy.
I have advanced Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy, also known as Chronic Regional Pain Syndrome. RSD/CRPS – as well as Trigeminal Neuralgia – has been called the most painful condition there is, it is also sometimes referred to as  ‘The Suicide Disease,” so when I say that getting off of buprenorphine is the most horrible and painful thing I have ever experienced that really means something.
I’ve already I’ve been weaning myself off buprenorphine for 10 1/2 weeks and I still have another 12 or 16 weeks to go – if I’m lucky. It may take even longer. And from what I have read, even once I have stopped taking buprenorphine completely, I can expect another month or two of significant withdrawal symptoms in the form of depression, anxiety, lethargy etc.
It is my personal opinion, based on more than 15 weeks of personal experience of being on buprenorphine, and 10 1/2 indescribably horrible weeks of trying to get off of buprenorphine, that this is a horrible medication, and for a chronic pain patient to use it as an alternative to opiates is a horrible mistake.
It is my personal opinion, based on personal experience, that putting chronic pain patients on either buprenorphine or Suboxone and telling them that it is a safe and effective alternative to opiates is a horrible scam.
It is my personal opinion, based on personal experience, that putting chronic pain patients on either buprenorphine or Suboxone and telling them that it is a safe and effective alternative to opiates is not only medically irresponsible, it is an outright lie.
Getting off of 40mg of hydrocodone per day after six months took two weeks and was no more unpleasant than a mild case of the flu.
With buprenorphine, it took 3 1/2 weeks to simply reduce my dosage from 6mg a day to 4mg a day and it was freaking horrible. I am still having extremely unpleasant withdrawal symptoms after being on 4mg a day for a week, and I expect this will continue for at least another week before I am stable.
STAY. THE. HELL. AWAY. FROM. BUPRENORPHINE.

Chuck Malinowski

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Cholesteatoma, Deafness And ASL


Have you always wanted to learn American Sign Language, but didn’t know where to start?

Well, the best place to learn all of the rules, parameters and the full language, is from a certified, Deaf ASL professor. You should do that if you are able to at all. You should also try to find a Deaf community to hang out with and go to Deaf events. Most of the communities are so amazing and we welcome all levels of ASL. We are excited for you to learn and happy to help. If you want to do that, but you don’t have the money or the venue to take those special classes; the next best place to start, is by heading over to YouTube.

There are several great places online where you can get started learning for no cost. The best and first, is Free ASL classes at Gallaudet . Next, I would say Lifeprint.com & Hantdspeak.com is another, but first I wanted to let you know that I do have some “ASL Basics- Vocabulary” lessons at my YouTube channel :

My YouTube Channel @ASLSuzyQ

The important thing is that you don’t just learn vocabulary, although that’s a great place to start. You need to learn about the language, culture, community and its history! I do have several videos that are a little bit about each of these things. I have one video about “How to get a Sign Name”. There are other videos that include “Deaf President Now” movement in the 1980’s. Also the Sign Language community that was living in Martha’s Vinyard, Massachusetts; in the early 18th century until 1952.

I’ve been using ASL since I was 11 years old. I was babysitting and hung out with a Deaf family of 6. I grew up mildly Hard of Hearing due to recurrent ear infections and numerous ruptured ear drums with scarring. I always had to sit in the front of the class because I couldn’t hear well. Later, when my elementary school performed hearing tests, they informed my parents that I needed tubes in my ears because I wasn’t hearing well. I had multiple operations from ages 7 through 12 or 13 years. However, I did not get hearing aids until much later.

I went to Deaf school events, such football games at MSD (Michigan school for Deaf). I fit right in and felt comfortable. I later went to college and a group of 16 Deaf students in the dorms, were my best friends. We watched “General Hospital” with closed captioned. We went dancing and had some great times together!

Later on, I took a break for a year and a half & went to work at a school in Arizona with Deaf preschoolers. I loved that job. I was ecstatic to find out that I’d beaten out several other candidates for that position because of my skills. I also worked at a Deaf relay center called ADARA or “Arizona Deaf Assistance Referral Association” while I was living in Scottsdale.

After working there for about a year and a half, I went back home to finish my degree in Sign language studies & Interpreting. I then got hired as an educational interpreter for a school district and stayed on Interpreting for my Alma Mater. I got married, had two daughters and 8 years later I became a single mom.

I needed to take care of my girls and I immediately got a full time job with full benefits at the University hospital. I was a “Secretarial float” & wore a pager so that I could be notified when Deaf clients/patients needed me to Interpret for them. I loved my job. At that same time, I was an Interpreter at a school district nearby. I also volunteered as a pro tactile interpreter for Deaf/Blind medical screening events a few times each year.

I continued attending workshops at my Alma Mater and one in particular stands out in my memory. I met an amazingly intelligent and kind man who impacted the rest of my life, in a good way! His name is Art Roehrig and he was a Deaf/Blind guest speaker at one of my most memorable workshops. He told stories about how he’d grown up at a residential Deaf school and discovered that he had Ushers Syndrome, when he was a teen. He shared jokes and told us all about how he was living independently. He was a public speaking and later worked at and then retired from Gallaudet University. I still email with my long time friend, Art.

Back in 2002, I was involved in an Catastrophic car accident. A man ran through a red light and I suffered multiple injuries, surgeries and a Traumatic brain injury. I went through 11 surgeries up until now, and 3 years of TBI (brain injury) rehabilitation. I am left with many medical issues, including several high pain chronic illnesses, chronic pain, a stroke, heart attack and I received a permanent dual chamber pacemaker. Since the car accident, I’ve had vision issues, such as “halo vision” and a Convergence Insufficiency. Also, due to the TBI, my hearing declined even more. Prisms were placed in my eyeglasses for quite awhile and I was fitted with two hearing aids for mild.

My hearing declined over the years and the past 4-5 years it was rapidly declining more. I was waiting until my husband retired this past year, to be fitted with new hearing aids. They’re so expensive ($6,000.00), so I had to wait until we got new insurance, that would help with the cost.

When I went for the hearing test, they were concerned because my bilateral hearing loss had very much worsened. The right side was also now a mixed hearing loss and not only sensory-neural. The ENT ordered a CT scan & later in May 2019, I was diagnosed with an auditory tumor, called a Cholesteatoma. I had a very scary & difficult brain/inner ear surgery on July 26, 2019. I got two new & improved digital hearing aids. But they’ve been nothing but trouble with one thing or another since I got them! We had to pay $1,500.00 of the cost plus $150.00 for the ear molds (which now both have split on me and I’ve only had them for a few months). I’m ready to give up on them.

My hearing bones, eardrum & Mastoid were all diseased from the tumor. I received a Tympanoplasty, a Mastoidectomy (called a Tympanomastoidectomy) & a titanium Anvil, a prosthetic ear-bone. I’ve had Vertigo, a tingling, droopy top, right lip & my tongue has no sensation or taste on the right side, since that surgery this Summer. Oh… and I’m Deaf in my right ear and Moderate/severe HoH in my left ear. The deafness isn’t my problem. The fact that I have to live a lifelong battle with a reoccurring tumor, (that’s like a cancer in the way that it grows into the brain & can kill you. Also in the way it can repeatedly grow back); that is my problem! I have to go back in Spring 2020, for another of the same surgery, possibly. The micro Neuro-Otologist surgeon, told me “to be prepared”. This thing is the “Never ending story”. An endless battle that results in multiple painful & scary surgeries and deafness. But as I said, deafness is not the problem. I’ve been part of the Deaf community since age 11. It’s the lifelong battle with more pain & surgeries on top of the current pain…..that is the major issue for me.

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