Do No Harm?


There’s a tragedy that’s happening to not only me, but millions of U.S. citizens, almost daily now. It seems that each month, many pain Dr.’s are terrorizing, demeaning, denigrating & dropping their sickest patients who live with mostly life-long chronic & disabling painful illnesses. (I’ll be referencing my personal experiences for the purpose of this writing).

My Pain Management Dr. seems to be terrorizing me just a little bit more….then a little more etc.. When I started there several years ago, he had tears in his eyes, as I sat sharing my history and past test results with him. He told me he would take me on as a patient if I’d be willing to stop taking this one quick acting pain med. (*of course after 12 years taking it), my body went through physical dependence w/d and I felt horrible for awhile, but I got through it. My heart Dr helped by prescribing 2 meds to help me physically. Things went along OK, until my PM Doc, told me, during my September 2018 visit, “that he was stopping my LA/ER medication”. He informed me he would begin, THAT day, all at once-“cold turkey”. I didn’t freak out, but I reminded him of my past h/o stroke and heart attack and how it’s not safe. He said he’d “let” me have 1 more month at 25% less, “to help me be psychologically ready”(wth???)… so I went with it. Next, I called my heart Dr and GI dr & they wrote a letter to my PM Dr., stating “that this wasn’t safe”. Also they explained how “it’s been working since 2003”. They pretty much wrote, “don’t mess with what is not broken”. They also reminded him of my illnesses, including Gastroparesis & my history of a stroke, heart attack !

The PM Dr became quite angry & said “their medical license isn’t any better than mine! Let them prescribe it to you, if they want you to have it!”… he ended up doing a quick taper and covered his a_ _ , by offering me a LA/ER oral medication that he knows I cannot take because of the Long QT & Gastroparesis.

Ok ….so I stopped the patch, got sick -worsened pain etc/physically. I went from doing a lot of volunteer work to sitting in my recliner 16 hours a day-due to pain.

Therefore, NOW each month that I go to him, I get a stomachache, nausea & diarrhea etc. & my anxiety is high. Last month he decided to add to our little conversation that “he won’t interfere right now”, but “they” want chronic pain patients to stop taking anymore anxiety medications. I’ve been on mine -(a very low dose) barely once a day (I take zero for many days at a time also)… but he says since HE doesn’t prescribe it, HE will not interfere “YET”! But soon he won’t be able to prescribe my short acting pain meds, if I am prescribed my small amount of anti-anxiety meds! Then he let me go home…until this month.

This month he surprised me with the fact that not only IS HE FORCED to prescribe me Narcan, but that I MUST pick it up if I want my pain (SA) medication!!! I told him “I don’t want or need it! I’ve been on less than I had been taking! Also, I have never had an issue since the guy ran a red light and hit me with his car and started all of this!!” He insisted, so I shut my mouth and left. He continued to send both scripts to pharmacy. But first he had to tell me how the “Narcan is like a fire extinguisher! You keep it around in case you need it!” Ok, but it’s different than that because a fire could possibly happen!! But me overdosing is NOT a possibility, when I’m on half of what I’d been on since 2003 -until now!! I NEVER TAKE MORE OR TOO MUCH!

I told my husband that I didn’t want the Narcan in my history, my records and I don’t want to be somehow misrepresented or “flagged” and I instructed him to “Not pick it up”! He went to the pharmacy & talked to the pharmacist. They told him “that was fine. The Dr. can offer it but I don’t need to accept it”, especially since I don’t have SAD or SUD!! Also, it was not covered by my Medicare advantage insurance plan. It would’ve cost $120 “out of pocket” !!!

Tell me what’s wrong with this picture?? Drug addicts are given free needles and free special clean disposal of those needles even in selected Starbucks stores now!! Addicts are given FREE Narcan!! What the hell is going on in this country?? A good, law abiding NON-addict has to pay and be punished for doing nothing–ZERO WRONG..& is told they must pay $120 for something they don’t want or need!! Nor will they ever need (btw, the pain management Dr explained how this Narcan expires yearly & I’d have to get a new one annually!!!????)! This is crazy, ludicrous and it’s “Market rigging!” They want sick & disabled people to pay for items that are not necessary and rig it so that they will not give them the pain medication that they need, unless they do so!!

This is wrong and bad and absolutely not right or lawful!! The pharmacist told us that we don’t HAVE TO get the Narcan filled & it’s not covered by insurance. It costs $120 out of pocket!

You can guess what happened and I’m good for another month! Until next month when I’ll be badgered, intimidated, terrorized! Also, the Dr (but actually the government in my Dr.’ chair) will try to fear monger me into less medication or some other life altering medication switch that I don’t want &/or cannot take!

Why can’t they leave us alone? Let me continue my treatment plan that has worked for 14-15 years?? Why do they have a need to terrorize us, demean us and eventually kill us all off ?? It’s all about money & big government studies without our consent!! It’s all about “Control” and “getting rid of the sick and most weak” persons in society so that we don’t drain the system without being productive!

What about all of those years that I worked and paid money into social security?? I deserve that back and I’m not getting government hand-outs!! Why is this happening?? This is all crazy Eugenics, Nazi B.S. !! Someone please help the chronic pain community NOW!! Before it’s too late!! A news station, a politician or a celebrity with a big voice, PLEASE HELP US NOW BEFORE ITS TOO LATE! I have lost several friends already because of this FAKE …NON-Prescription opioid / Opioid crisis!

Wake up American media, &/or politicians who have a heart; who aren’t money hungry or power hungry!! Wake up and help these citizens. There’s a large group of 100 million chronic pain patients who need you to step in and DO something to stop the suffering!!

The INTERNATIONAL Association for the Study of Pain (IASP), says that suffering is inhumane and unnecessary! International Association for the Study of Pain

Preamble

“The mission of the International Association for the Study of Pain is “to stimulate and support the study of pain and to translate that knowledge into improved pain relief worldwide.” Its overall vision is “Working together for pain relief throughout the world.” The most preventable form of human pain is that inflicted in the form of torture and inhumane treatment, whether physical or psychological. The participation by IASP members in acts of torture or inhumane treatment is therefore against the fundamental principles of the Association.

“For the purpose of this Declaration, torture is defined as the deliberate, systematic or wanton infliction of physical or mental suffering by one or more persons acting alone or on the orders of a public authority, to force another person to yield information, to make a confession, or for any other reason.” [World Medical Association. Declaration of Tokyo (1975). Adopted by the World Medical Association, Tokyo, Japan, October 1975.]”

S.O.S……HELP US!!!!

Health experts offer solutions for unintended consequences of opioid crackdown | Fox News


Hello Luvs,

This information came to me via an email & so I wanted to share it with you:

The most urgently needed first step to addressing the misunderstandings about Centers for Disease and Prevention opioid prescribing guidelines, many clinicians and health experts say, is for the agency to clarify – in a high-profile way– what the guidelines were meant, and not meant, to do.
— Read on www.foxnews.com/health/undoing-the-harm-of-the-response-to-the-opioid-overdose-epidemic-health-experts-suggest-solutions.amp

Also, here is The Fox News Sequence of Stories Regarding the Opioid Hysteria & Chronic Pain Patients .

One of several very special physicians, who’ve been helping fight for the rights of Drs and chronic pain patients is Dr Stefan Kertesz, MD. He is quoted in this article on Fox News:

  • “We’re targeting the most vulnerable and sickest people who have been on opioids a long time”.

Dr. Stefan Kertesz, addiction specialist and professor at the University of Alabama at Birmingham School of Medicine.

Richard Lawhern, a very staunch advocate for chronic pain patient community; is also quoted in this report. He is also advocating for his wife daughter, who live with chronic pain. Here is the quote from Richard aka “Red” Lawhern:

  • “The [CDC opioid guideline] document is fatally flawed and needs to be withdrawn for a major revision in an open public process by qualified experts in community practice for chronic pain treatment, assisted by representatives or advocates from chronic pain communities.”

— Richard Lawhern

Lastly, Lauren Deluca, founder of Chronic Illness Advocacy & Awareness Group“,(an ever growing & popular Non profit 501/3c) is quoted here:

  • “Too many flawed approaches and policies targeting pain patients, she said, “will take many years to undo, but we can’t wait years.”
  • She also was quoted as saying this: I myself was a healthy 36-year-old professional embarking on starting a family and in a blink of an eye my life was destroyed due to a denial of care,” Deluca said. “It’s not just about pain; it’s about quality of life. Now we are teaching doctors to ignore pain, which not only leaves the patient suffering but likely will lead to many not getting diagnosed, therefore not only will they not receive pain medications they will not even receive basic care.”

Please read the entire Fox News series of three stories. They are focused on different aspects of this Opioid Hysteria. Also the lack of treatment and compassionate care for the chronic pain community. *The current story, (3rd in a sequence of three), and the other stories in the sequence can be located above. They are the first two, blue hyperlinks, near the top of this blog post.

Lastly, I wanted to share something on the same subject but different platform. As I mentioned above, Lauren Deluca is the founder of CIAAG. (a Non Profit 501 c-3. The link to her group website is above, but let me add it here for you as well: Chronic Illnesses Advocacy: & Awareness Group)

Link to The Documentary Trailer “Untreated: The Healthcare Crisis”

She recently attended an International Meeting with the United Nations in Vienna. According to her website, Lauren spoke about the inhumane  treatment chronic pain patients are facing due to the ‘Opioid Crisis’ in the United States. 

Here’s is a link to get you to a YouTube video that shows her speaking in person at the event:

United Nations Office of Drugs and Crime: 61st Commission on Narcotic Drugs

Please look over everything, that I’ve tried to present to you in one neat little blog post. I hope that you feel updated and possibly more optimistic about the changes coming in this New Year, 2019.

Something must be done to change the deplorable conditions that have been put upon the chronic pain community! These great leaders and others, working together as a united front; that is how we are going to help make the changes that we need to see happen this new year!

Thank you for coming back to visit and read “Tears of Truth”.

They Fell like Dominos: My License, My Certification, My Profession


Hello Luvs,This blog post is actually something that was written and sent to me by Dr Mark Ibsen, MD, a physician from Helena, MT. He wrote and says:

“I had similar experience. 
Guilty. 
Not even “guilty until proven innocent”
Just guilty. 
Once they set their sights on you,
You
Are
Fkkd. 

This system is feudal. 
Primitive. 
Insensitive. 
Ineffective. 
Unchecked, as in no checks or balances. 
Run by appointed people who are completely unaccountable. 
No recourse. 
In the name of “safety”, 
With no evidence of harm. 
Like a trip to the Gulag. 

The key is for patients to realize that doctors have become so vulnerable that we cannot risk ANY exposure to ANY accusations. 
A risk-averse environment due to the hostile regulatory environment we now have. 

So, as more and more patients despair over being abandoned by this system, the sacred physician patient relationship is further tarnished. 

I, for one, will continue to stand by the patients I can, and pray for those I cannot.” 

Here’s the article that accompanied the email from Dr Mark Ibsen, MD:

They Fell like Dominos: My License, My Certification, My Profession

Mark Ibsen MD
Helena MT

Medicare Patients Face New Rx Opioid Rules in 2019 — Pain News Network


Hello Luvs,

I received this information from Pat Anson of the Pain News Network. This information may prove to be very valuable to many of the chronic pain community. I wanted to be sure that you saw this. I also wanted to be sure to share it with you all. This is the new Medicare 2019 rules regarding Opioids.

Medicare Patients Face New Rx Opioid Rules in 2019 — Pain News Network
— Read on www.painnewsnetwork.org/stories/2018/12/31/medicare-patients-face-new-rx-opioid-rules-in-2019

I hope your 2019 will be Blessed and peaceful. Sending light and love your way.

International Stakeholder Community of Pain Experts and Leaders Call for an Urgent Action on Forced Opioid Tapering | Pain Medicine |Oxford Academic


The aforementioned article proves that there may be hope for the chronic pain community.

In 2016, Andrew Kolodny, (who is co-Director of Opioids policy Research at Brandeis University), along with a group of Addiction specialists & others, went behind closed doors to “invent” & then Implement the 2016 CDC Guidelines regarding the use of Opioids. These were Supposed to be just guidelines for primary care doctors. But they rapidly became “the law” in the eyes of the CDC, DEA, National News Media outlets, Pharmacies & our government officials. Today we even have legitimate, licensed pain management Physicians, heading for the hills! They’re Not following the Hippocratic oath. These physicians are abandoning patients & putting many at high risk, myself included. The way that the chronic pain community has been treated, has been outrageous.

Please feel free to share this article on social media. Print it out and take it with you to your Dr. appointments. Let’s also share it far & wide through the news media channels as well. They’ve been getting it wrong & now need to help change the hysteria & damage that’s been created.

“We, the under signed, stand as a unified community of stakeholders and key opinion leaders deeply concerned about forced opioid tapering in patients receiving lolong-term prescription opioid therapy for chronic pain. This is a large-scale humanitarian issue. Our specific concerns involve:
— Read on academic.oup.com/painmedicine/advance-article/doi/10.1093/pm/pny228/5218985

Kratom, Great Help For Most but Deadly for Some


Hello Luvs,

There was a bit of a debate in one of my groups, regarding Kratom. I know it’s so helpful for many people. I do not think the government should step in and ban this too!! It’s relatively safe but I was discussing that it can and may help loads of chronic pain patients, but not everyone!

Like anything else, you need to discuss it with your Dr ahead of time and please get an EKG first. I have several complicated heart arrhythmias. One is pretty uncommon but most people don’t even know that they have it until they die from “sudden cardiac death” (which is its only symptom). It’s called “Long QT syndrome”. There are many thousands of medications on the “DO NOT TAKE” list with long QT syndrome. The list updates daily and herbs such as Kratom, Turmeric & Ginseng are among the things that people with LQTS cannot take. Please just be safe and I hope you continue to have or get access to whatever kind of pain relief works for you!

But please check out this article I’ve posted below:

**This article is mysteriously gone now? It disappeared from the internet: **Just a little info about Kratom before you take it

**(4-2019)now this is what shows up instead:

Why I Resigned From USPF


Hello Luvs,

It is with sadness that I write this blog post today. I would never intentionally hurt anyone. But I wanted my followers/friends in the pain community to know that this was the most difficult thing that I’ve ever had to do. I loved doing this volunteer work for USPF. They always told me that we were a “family”. Yet, the very day that I lost my Long acting/Extended release pain medication, I opened an email that was just the opposite of everything I thought we stood for. Since that email, I have contemplated resigning, but did not want to “hurt” anyone or do anything to leave them without enough board members etc. But from that day on, things just went down hill. Next, I saw a trailer for a movie that stars actress Karen Duffy and our Interim CEO, called “Balancing the Pain Scale”, that I found out has been in production for 2-3 years. As a Board member, I knew nothing about this movie until someone else alerted me. I went to the trailer and was saddened when I saw the words get “beyond the pill bottle” as I was losing the one thing that had given me some semblance of a life; and so are so many of you.

Lastly, I must add that in the past, I was sent copies of kind emails that pain patients would send in about me. I was also sent emails about patients who needed my help. I never received any emails/letters such as these since becoming a Board member. Not until a disgruntled pain patient who was removed from one of my groups for being disrespectful and unkind sent the interim CEO an email. This person spelled my name incorrectly as “Susan Stuart”, she obviously does not know me and did not know me at all. I felt belittled and reprimanded by being sent the code of ethics. Especially when the issues had nothing to do with USPF and I did not use my role in any conversations with that person. I did not receive a personal phone call, nor did anyone request any information or clarification regarding the absurd complaint; after my years of loyalty to USPF. Therefore, you can read the end result in my recent letter to the Board members below:

Dear Nicole, Wendy, Ellen, Leah & Bruce,

When I was initially asked to join the Board of Directors of the USPF, I was pleased and excited to be joining a group that I feel is  doing wonderful things and representing the interests of the pain community.

Very quickly, (due to Paul’s behaviors+)I discovered that this perception was not true. However, I decided to help shoulder the burden of guiding USPF through the trauma of the aftermath of of Paul’s mishandling of funds & more. Also to stay & help with USPF losing its founder and CEO. As time went on, shocking details of misuse of funds & other inappropriate behaviors kept adding up.kept adding up. I decided that it was my duty to stick by Nicole  & the other Board members & our legal team, to help clean up this mess & help to guide US Pain Foundation in the right direction.

I have become increasingly frustrated because everything that was promised to me upon becoming a Board member has not happened. I was told that I could represent US pain foundation at Pain week in Las Vegas 2018. I was also told that I would be put on an advisory board and be given a program of my own to run and see through to the end. I have been told repeatedly that as a Board member I cannot officially run any programs, but others do. I feel that those things I’m most passionate about are marginalized. I feel that somehow I was inadvertently sought out & appointed to the Board, because somehow, some person(s) thought that I would just agree and not ever express my own voice and opinions. But I do have opinions and a voice. I’m sad that as a board member I don’t know who any of our donors are and I didn’t find out about the movie that’s been in production for three years, I was told? There’s so many things I don’t know but then Leah told me that “there’s no one higher than the board”? It’s a bit confusing in all honesty. I feel “kept in the dark” about many things.

One big reason or probably the that I feel the need to resign from the board of directors of the US Pain foundation starting immediately, is due to the lack of  insurance for Board members & support group members. I don’t feel “safe” being involved with voting on big decisions yet being “left in the dark” much of the time. I don’t really know where money is going or where n it comes from in all  honesty. All the things that I used to love I’m not able to do anymore because “I am a board member“.

Last of all & sadly, I received an email today with a copy of the code of ethics from Nicole. A disgruntled pain patient from Canada, sent her note full of horrible lies & accusations. I was not consulted privately via a phone call or even given the benefit of the doubt. I have never had any trouble with not one person since I joined this or any organizations. I don’t speak or claim to speak for the USPF in any of my groups that I run. I only give facts with links to back up what I say as chronic pain patient.

For all of the above reasons and due to the fact that I don’t feel respected, I must tender my resignation from the Board of Directors  of the US Pain Foundation immediately.

Sadly,

Peace & Hope,

Suzanne B. Stewart

about.me/suzydukettes

Recipient of USPF’s Pain Ambassador of the Year Award‘16, Mentor & Social Media Assistant RSDSA, Staff Columnist/Ntl. Pain Report, Blog-“Tears Of Truth” @tearsoftruth.com, Patient leader WEGO Health, HoH/ASL, patient advocate for Deaf/HoH

“Out of suffering have emerged the most massive characters are seared with scars” ~Khalil Gibran~

Thank you for taking the time to let me share with you. I feel a deep sadness and broken at this time.