Do No Harm?


There’s a tragedy that’s happening to not only me, but millions of U.S. citizens, almost daily now. It seems that each month, many pain Dr.’s are terrorizing, demeaning, denigrating & dropping their sickest patients who live with mostly life-long chronic & disabling painful illnesses. (I’ll be referencing my personal experiences for the purpose of this writing).

My Pain Management Dr. seems to be terrorizing me just a little bit more….then a little more etc.. When I started there several years ago, he had tears in his eyes, as I sat sharing my history and past test results with him. He told me he would take me on as a patient if I’d be willing to stop taking this one quick acting pain med. (*of course after 12 years taking it), my body went through physical dependence w/d and I felt horrible for awhile, but I got through it. My heart Dr helped by prescribing 2 meds to help me physically. Things went along OK, until my PM Doc, told me, during my September 2018 visit, “that he was stopping my LA/ER medication”. He informed me he would begin, THAT day, all at once-“cold turkey”. I didn’t freak out, but I reminded him of my past h/o stroke and heart attack and how it’s not safe. He said he’d “let” me have 1 more month at 25% less, “to help me be psychologically ready”(wth???)… so I went with it. Next, I called my heart Dr and GI dr & they wrote a letter to my PM Dr., stating “that this wasn’t safe”. Also they explained how “it’s been working since 2003”. They pretty much wrote, “don’t mess with what is not broken”. They also reminded him of my illnesses, including Gastroparesis & my history of a stroke, heart attack !

The PM Dr became quite angry & said “their medical license isn’t any better than mine! Let them prescribe it to you, if they want you to have it!”… he ended up doing a quick taper and covered his a_ _ , by offering me a LA/ER oral medication that he knows I cannot take because of the Long QT & Gastroparesis.

Ok ….so I stopped the patch, got sick -worsened pain etc/physically. I went from doing a lot of volunteer work to sitting in my recliner 16 hours a day-due to pain.

Therefore, NOW each month that I go to him, I get a stomachache, nausea & diarrhea etc. & my anxiety is high. Last month he decided to add to our little conversation that “he won’t interfere right now”, but “they” want chronic pain patients to stop taking anymore anxiety medications. I’ve been on mine -(a very low dose) barely once a day (I take zero for many days at a time also)… but he says since HE doesn’t prescribe it, HE will not interfere “YET”! But soon he won’t be able to prescribe my short acting pain meds, if I am prescribed my small amount of anti-anxiety meds! Then he let me go home…until this month.

This month he surprised me with the fact that not only IS HE FORCED to prescribe me Narcan, but that I MUST pick it up if I want my pain (SA) medication!!! I told him “I don’t want or need it! I’ve been on less than I had been taking! Also, I have never had an issue since the guy ran a red light and hit me with his car and started all of this!!” He insisted, so I shut my mouth and left. He continued to send both scripts to pharmacy. But first he had to tell me how the “Narcan is like a fire extinguisher! You keep it around in case you need it!” Ok, but it’s different than that because a fire could possibly happen!! But me overdosing is NOT a possibility, when I’m on half of what I’d been on since 2003 -until now!! I NEVER TAKE MORE OR TOO MUCH!

I told my husband that I didn’t want the Narcan in my history, my records and I don’t want to be somehow misrepresented or “flagged” and I instructed him to “Not pick it up”! He went to the pharmacy & talked to the pharmacist. They told him “that was fine. The Dr. can offer it but I don’t need to accept it”, especially since I don’t have SAD or SUD!! Also, it was not covered by my Medicare advantage insurance plan. It would’ve cost $120 “out of pocket” !!!

Tell me what’s wrong with this picture?? Drug addicts are given free needles and free special clean disposal of those needles even in selected Starbucks stores now!! Addicts are given FREE Narcan!! What the hell is going on in this country?? A good, law abiding NON-addict has to pay and be punished for doing nothing–ZERO WRONG..& is told they must pay $120 for something they don’t want or need!! Nor will they ever need (btw, the pain management Dr explained how this Narcan expires yearly & I’d have to get a new one annually!!!????)! This is crazy, ludicrous and it’s “Market rigging!” They want sick & disabled people to pay for items that are not necessary and rig it so that they will not give them the pain medication that they need, unless they do so!!

This is wrong and bad and absolutely not right or lawful!! The pharmacist told us that we don’t HAVE TO get the Narcan filled & it’s not covered by insurance. It costs $120 out of pocket!

You can guess what happened and I’m good for another month! Until next month when I’ll be badgered, intimidated, terrorized! Also, the Dr (but actually the government in my Dr.’ chair) will try to fear monger me into less medication or some other life altering medication switch that I don’t want &/or cannot take!

Why can’t they leave us alone? Let me continue my treatment plan that has worked for 14-15 years?? Why do they have a need to terrorize us, demean us and eventually kill us all off ?? It’s all about money & big government studies without our consent!! It’s all about “Control” and “getting rid of the sick and most weak” persons in society so that we don’t drain the system without being productive!

What about all of those years that I worked and paid money into social security?? I deserve that back and I’m not getting government hand-outs!! Why is this happening?? This is all crazy Eugenics, Nazi B.S. !! Someone please help the chronic pain community NOW!! Before it’s too late!! A news station, a politician or a celebrity with a big voice, PLEASE HELP US NOW BEFORE ITS TOO LATE! I have lost several friends already because of this FAKE …NON-Prescription opioid / Opioid crisis!

Wake up American media, &/or politicians who have a heart; who aren’t money hungry or power hungry!! Wake up and help these citizens. There’s a large group of 100 million chronic pain patients who need you to step in and DO something to stop the suffering!!

The INTERNATIONAL Association for the Study of Pain (IASP), says that suffering is inhumane and unnecessary! International Association for the Study of Pain

Preamble

“The mission of the International Association for the Study of Pain is “to stimulate and support the study of pain and to translate that knowledge into improved pain relief worldwide.” Its overall vision is “Working together for pain relief throughout the world.” The most preventable form of human pain is that inflicted in the form of torture and inhumane treatment, whether physical or psychological. The participation by IASP members in acts of torture or inhumane treatment is therefore against the fundamental principles of the Association.

“For the purpose of this Declaration, torture is defined as the deliberate, systematic or wanton infliction of physical or mental suffering by one or more persons acting alone or on the orders of a public authority, to force another person to yield information, to make a confession, or for any other reason.” [World Medical Association. Declaration of Tokyo (1975). Adopted by the World Medical Association, Tokyo, Japan, October 1975.]”

S.O.S……HELP US!!!!

A Letter To RFK (Human Rights) Foundation


RFK Human Rights Group: Watch Video

Hello Luvs,

I was sent a video about the RFK, Human Rights Group. It’s led by Kerry Kennedy, daughter of the late Robert Kennedy. She is an attorney and she now leads this human rights group: RFK Human Rights group website

Immediately, I drafted a letter to her and sent it. Below, I have copied/pasted the exact letter that I sent to Ms. Kennedy. Something must change! The “Opioid Hysteria Crisis” is one of the worst nightmares I’ve witnessed &/or experienced. Watching a large group of approximately 26 million (out of the 100 million people living with chronic pain) human beings, systematically tortured to death has been horrendous. To be a witness to this despicable, willful & planned money making scheme, is nauseating to say the least! I’ve watched as the innocent chronically ill people in our pain community die and continue to die on a weekly basis. Maybe I will be next? So I pray that doesn’t happen and that I keep fighting.

I have been a very active advocate/activist in fighting for the rights of people in the chronic pain community. I have led the fight as far back as 2007, in spreading awareness, doing fundraisers, leading several online support groups & then being certified & leading “in-person” chronic pain support groups as well. I’m certified in pediatric RSD/CRPS, as well as being the Social media assistant for RSDSA. I’m a freelance writer with a blog (this one, @tearsoftruth.com) that has been nominated twice for “Best In show- blog by WEGO Health Awards. I was invited by IDA ( Invisible disabilities Association) to do & ultimately did a featured video on their “Invisible No More” YouTube channel. In 2016,’17 & ’18, I had 42 articles published. I was one of the many advocates/Drs/nurses etc., who helped edit & sign the letter to Brandeis University, demanding that Andrew Kolodny be fired for his leading role in the torture & deaths of multiple chronic pain patients (due to forced tapering & the 2016 CDC Guidelines).

Lastly, I was awarded the “US Pain Ambassador of the Year Award” in 2016. Afterwards, I was asked to be on the USPF Board of Directors (*a volunteer position which I accepted & later resigned after only 8 months. If you want to read more about that, visit: Why I resigned from the US Pain Foundation).

There’s more, but you get the idea. Sadly, since last Summer, 2018, I had my LA/ER pain medication forcibly & quickly tapered between July 22 –September 1st, 2018. I’d been doing reasonably well on a stable dose for 14 years. Since then I can often be found in my “Lazy boy” type of recliner, approximately 16 hours per day. I continue to do my best with my online support groups and I continue to fight for us via my blog/writing, support groups, mentoring for RSDSA, Social media Support for RSDSA & Deaf/HoH communications Director for CIAAG. I try to support everyone and stay out of any drama. I’m doing all that I can do at this point in time.

This is inhumane and torturous for the USA to be treating their citizens this way! Someone please help us!

Here’s the letter that I wrote to the Human Rights Watch group, run by Kerry Kennedy:

Dear Ms. Kennedy 

I’m writing to you today because I know that you help people who’ve had their human rights violated. I represent only one out of 100 million people in the chronic pain community. Out of that number, there are an estimated 26 million of us who urgently need your help.  Many people in the United States of America are  dealing with horrific pain on a daily basis.  I stand along with them  & implore you to help put an end to the violation of human rights that is taking place. 

The CDC, DEA and “Big Brother” Pharma companies are “hurting” the American chronic pain Community. We are losing access to medically necessary medications that enable us to live some semblance of a life. 

We are and have been losing access to our pain relieving medications since the implementation of 2016 CDC Guidelines.  We are  being “lumped together” with illicit drug users and addicts. Every time a celebrity dies of an overdose, they blame the pain meds as the cause of death. But really it’s the misuse and abuse of pain medications along with the use of recreational street drugs. 

A Dr. should not be afraid to prescribe Opioid pain medications to their patients because of repercussions from the CDC or DEA. But our pain Physicians are leaving in droves because of them & the 2016 CDC Guidelines. 

The  “Opioid epidemic” is about illegal/illicit fentanyl brought here from Mexico & China. It’s not about us, the 100 million chronic pain patients in the USA. Only 1% of legitimate chronic pain patients who are legitimately prescribed opioids, for high amounts of pain, ever become addicted. It’s as though our country is now torturing and punishing people for being ill.

Ms. Kennedy, we are not addicts and we are not “addicted”.  A person can be “dependent” on a medication and not be addicted! They are two very different situations. We are not addicted to our medications and we do not get cravings nor do we get “high” from them. An addict seeks out their “drug of choice” at any cost.  They look forward to taking them because of the “high” they get. A legitimate chronic pain patient who’s done well for years on a stable dose of opioid pain medication, doesn’t get any sort of “high”.  We also take our medications responsibly.  We get some relief and reprieve from the daily chronic pain that we live with. 

Please help us get back the physician / patient relationship, without interference from Pharmacy’s, insurers, the government and politics.  Please help us to keep our Drs in charge. It should be the decision between patient/physician to choose what is necessary and best for our pain control. They went to medical school and the government did not.

Many pain management Dr’s are leaving the practices they’ve built and the profession they’ve worked hard at, to achieve. They’re  afraid because they are being wrongly targeted by the DEA . They aren’t free to prescribe medications that help to relieve pain anymore. 

People in the USA in 2019 are being tortured and hurt by this on a daily basis. Just yesterday, I read the story of a 94-year-old woman who shattered her kneecap and was taken to the hospital emergency room. They immobilized her knee and sent her home without any pain control at all. Can you even imagine shattering your kneecap and not getting any thing to help with a torturous pain like that?
Ms. Kennedy, please help us? I understand there are people who die from overdoses. But they are a totally separate group of people who need a different kind of help. It shouldn’t be at the expense of an entire separate community of citizens. People In pain are being taken off of their Opioid pain medication during one visit to the Dr’s office. Often it’s a Dr. that they’ve gone to for years and they’d been living some semblance of a life while on a regimen of medication for pain control. But because of “fear”, Dr’s are taking away the little bit of life that some of us have left. 

I also don’t believe that anyone should be FORCED to have an invasive surgery in their spine or anywhere for that matter; when an inexpensive & safe pill, with little side effects can help so much. 

I implore you to help the estimated 26 million chronic pain patients in the USA, who are “dependent” on opioids for pain control & who are diligent and take these medications responsibly. Help us to get back the freedom of choice. Get us back to the pain management medication regimens that are life sustaining for us with more tolerable pain levels.

Please read my letter and talk to me if you’d like. We need you to understand that we are “chronic pain patients” and not “addicts”! We are just real people living with unfortunate circumstances & high pain illnesses. Please help us to receive the medications that give us some semblance of a life for ourselves & our families.

Sincerely,

Suzanne B. Stewart
Recipient of U.S. Pain Ambassador of the Year Award‘16, Mentor & Social Media Coordinator @RSDSA, freelance writer, Blogger/Blog “Tears Of Truth” @tearsoftruth.com, Patient leader WEGO Health, HoH/ASL, Director of communications for Deaf/HoH for CIAAG, patient advocate for Deaf/HoH
“Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars” ~Khalil Gibran~
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Giving PAIN To Help With Pain?


I read this article called “How to Ease pain without Opioids? Specialists are finding Ways” by Steve Dorfman from Palm Beach Post, a staff writer. He is writing about a clinic that opened in Florida. We all know that Florida is the very worst or one of the worst states to be living with chronic pain and residing in. Does this make any sense at all to the chronic pain patients or any sane individual? The interventions that are being outlined in this article are tortuous to say the least! 

This Dr. Tapia outlines several different approaches to use instead of narcotics or opioids. Why aren’t sick people who are legitimately living with daily chronic pain, allowed to take a pill like everyone else who is really sick? It has NOT been proven that cancer pain is worse than any other form of chronic pain. The CDC rebuked Andrew Kolodny when he tried to use that line on them. It just is not true. I have two family members with cancer and they told me themselves that their pain is “not that bad” and definitely not as bad as many other chronic pain illnesses. At least with most other illnesses there is an end in sight or a treatment that helps but now the chronic pain population are being forced to do painful, torturous and just plain “stupid” things that are supposed to “trick our minds into believing that we feel better”. That is my opinion!

First of all, people who live with daily intractable pain, do not get high, do not abuse their pain medications and do not do anything they should not do with their medications. They use them for pain relief only! The chronic pain population should not be made to continually suffer and die because there are “bad” people who brought “bad” drugs like cara fentanyl over from South America and elsewhere! This is insane! If someone starts abusing insulin to lose weight and then people die, will they start taking insulin away from the Diabetics in America? Guess what? I bet you that won’t ever happen!

This Dr.  In Florida has several approaches.  He and other pain Dr’s who are now “afraid” to prescribe medication that can easily help their patients without giving them more pain on top of the chronic pain they are enduring; are calling this “Interventional Pain medicine”.  They are doing some things like this:  more injections (that sounds fun), nerve blocks (yep they hurt worse and then maybe help for a month, but guess what?? You cannot do that forever!!!), and what they like to call “minimally invasive outpatient surgeries.  This is ludicrous and crazy!

There is this method they are doing where they take your red blood cells out (ouch) and they “spin them around in a special centrifuge machine that separates and concentrates platelets and growth factors, and then it is injected” …get this…this is the “good part”…”they INJECT IT INTO THE PAINFUL AREAS!” That sounds like something I want to try, with systemic  CRPS….NOT… I’ve heard that this may help some forms of Arthritis! But what about all of the other horribly painful illnesses Like Arachnoiditis, CRPS, EDS and many others??? Then there is a high intensity laser therapy “believed by some to promote tissue healing”….yea…sorry…load of crap!  They also have this recently cleared by the FDA device called NIP procedure (NIP stands for noninvasive pain). They use a microchip and acupuncture needles, placed “strategically behind the patients ear”.  This technology transmits a flow of signals to the patient for as long as they are “wearing” the device (usually 4 or 5 days). Well, Ok but what about the rest of your life after 4 or 5 days??

I am talking about intractable pain, chronic pain and pain that will most likely never disappear. These kinds of treatments are asinine for these kinds of chronic pain patients. I’m sorry but taking a pill a couple times a day, that has absolutely no side effects and does not harm me in any way, is a much easier approach for those already living with daily struggles of constant pain that will not eventually disappear.  These “pain interventionists” are just making a lot of money and taking advantage of the chronic pain population. I’m sorry but you cannot just “think this kind of pain away”. You cannot wear a couple of needles behind your ear and watch it “Poof” away! These are insane ideas from an insane culture who are being hysterical about opioids. Opioids have a place in the chronic and acute pain world.  We need palliative of life care. We aren’t going to live as long as the “normal” person anyways. I am not an addict. I am NOT afraid of losing my pain meds, I’m more afraid of feeling the pain when it is not controlled!

My specialist physician told me the other day that “unfortunately, I am collateral damage to the hysteria that is taking place in our society today”. He’s 100% correct and I will probably not live through this again. I lost my physician 3 years ago. One day he was there and he was my Dr. For about 15 yrs. The next day he was gone without an explanation. I was caught going off meds for pain after 12 years “cold turkey”. I was very sick and my blood pressure went high, my blood sugar went high and it was torturous. Last Monday, I was told that my 100 fentanyl patch was being taken away. No tapering, just “one more month to help me get ready psychologically”. What the heck is that about? The safe way is to wean someone 10% every couple of weeks or so. On August 10th I will not be given the patch again. I was offered some other oral extended relief medication but I have Gastroparesis. In what lifetime doesn’t a pain Dr. Or any Dr.  know that Oral opioids, especially extended ones, are not recommended for people who live with Gastroparesis (another painful condition)?? No one cares? I’ve written to my Senator, the president, my state rep and I’ve made videos and blog posts and news articles. Nobody cares about us anymore. Nobody cares about my life or my quality of life any longer? What happened to these United States of America? 

(My information is from http://www.palmbeachpost.com May 21st, 2018 *Please go over there and post comments about your feelings regarding this insanity)