Giving PAIN To Help With Pain?


I read this article called “How to Ease pain without Opioids? Specialists are finding Ways” by Steve Dorfman from Palm Beach Post, a staff writer. He is writing about a clinic that opened in Florida. We all know that Florida is the very worst or one of the worst states to be living with chronic pain and residing in. Does this make any sense at all to the chronic pain patients or any sane individual? The interventions that are being outlined in this article are tortuous to say the least! 

This Dr. Tapia outlines several different approaches to use instead of narcotics or opioids. Why aren’t sick people who are legitimately living with daily chronic pain, allowed to take a pill like everyone else who is really sick? It has NOT been proven that cancer pain is worse than any other form of chronic pain. The CDC rebuked Andrew Kolodny when he tried to use that line on them. It just is not true. I have two family members with cancer and they told me themselves that their pain is “not that bad” and definitely not as bad as many other chronic pain illnesses. At least with most other illnesses there is an end in sight or a treatment that helps but now the chronic pain population are being forced to do painful, torturous and just plain “stupid” things that are supposed to “trick our minds into believing that we feel better”. That is my opinion!

First of all, people who live with daily intractable pain, do not get high, do not abuse their pain medications and do not do anything they should not do with their medications. They use them for pain relief only! The chronic pain population should not be made to continually suffer and die because there are “bad” people who brought “bad” drugs like cara fentanyl over from South America and elsewhere! This is insane! If someone starts abusing insulin to lose weight and then people die, will they start taking insulin away from the Diabetics in America? Guess what? I bet you that won’t ever happen!

This Dr.  In Florida has several approaches.  He and other pain Dr’s who are now “afraid” to prescribe medication that can easily help their patients without giving them more pain on top of the chronic pain they are enduring; are calling this “Interventional Pain medicine”.  They are doing some things like this:  more injections (that sounds fun), nerve blocks (yep they hurt worse and then maybe help for a month, but guess what?? You cannot do that forever!!!), and what they like to call “minimally invasive outpatient surgeries.  This is ludicrous and crazy!

There is this method they are doing where they take your red blood cells out (ouch) and they “spin them around in a special centrifuge machine that separates and concentrates platelets and growth factors, and then it is injected” …get this…this is the “good part”…”they INJECT IT INTO THE PAINFUL AREAS!” That sounds like something I want to try, with systemic  CRPS….NOT… I’ve heard that this may help some forms of Arthritis! But what about all of the other horribly painful illnesses Like Arachnoiditis, CRPS, EDS and many others??? Then there is a high intensity laser therapy “believed by some to promote tissue healing”….yea…sorry…load of crap!  They also have this recently cleared by the FDA device called NIP procedure (NIP stands for noninvasive pain). They use a microchip and acupuncture needles, placed “strategically behind the patients ear”.  This technology transmits a flow of signals to the patient for as long as they are “wearing” the device (usually 4 or 5 days). Well, Ok but what about the rest of your life after 4 or 5 days??

I am talking about intractable pain, chronic pain and pain that will most likely never disappear. These kinds of treatments are asinine for these kinds of chronic pain patients. I’m sorry but taking a pill a couple times a day, that has absolutely no side effects and does not harm me in any way, is a much easier approach for those already living with daily struggles of constant pain that will not eventually disappear.  These “pain interventionists” are just making a lot of money and taking advantage of the chronic pain population. I’m sorry but you cannot just “think this kind of pain away”. You cannot wear a couple of needles behind your ear and watch it “Poof” away! These are insane ideas from an insane culture who are being hysterical about opioids. Opioids have a place in the chronic and acute pain world.  We need palliative of life care. We aren’t going to live as long as the “normal” person anyways. I am not an addict. I am NOT afraid of losing my pain meds, I’m more afraid of feeling the pain when it is not controlled!

My specialist physician told me the other day that “unfortunately, I am collateral damage to the hysteria that is taking place in our society today”. He’s 100% correct and I will probably not live through this again. I lost my physician 3 years ago. One day he was there and he was my Dr. For about 15 yrs. The next day he was gone without an explanation. I was caught going off meds for pain after 12 years “cold turkey”. I was very sick and my blood pressure went high, my blood sugar went high and it was torturous. Last Monday, I was told that my 100 fentanyl patch was being taken away. No tapering, just “one more month to help me get ready psychologically”. What the heck is that about? The safe way is to wean someone 10% every couple of weeks or so. On August 10th I will not be given the patch again. I was offered some other oral extended relief medication but I have Gastroparesis. In what lifetime doesn’t a pain Dr. Or any Dr.  know that Oral opioids, especially extended ones, are not recommended for people who live with Gastroparesis (another painful condition)?? No one cares? I’ve written to my Senator, the president, my state rep and I’ve made videos and blog posts and news articles. Nobody cares about us anymore. Nobody cares about my life or my quality of life any longer? What happened to these United States of America? 

(My information is from http://www.palmbeachpost.com May 21st, 2018 *Please go over there and post comments about your feelings regarding this insanity)

Withdrawals From Actiq…..3 Weeks Later….For CRPS/Systemic


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“Why give up everything for one thing when you can give up one thing for everything”……Unknown

Hello Luvs,

Wow…it has now been 3 weeks (*tomorrow….On Monday, Aug 3, 2015), since I went  from 5 Fentanyl “Actiq” Lollipops per day (Plus the long lasting Fentanyl patch that I still continue to wear and to change every 48 hours), to zero Actiq lollipops for Breakthrough pain per day. I went to bed on the 12th of July taking my last “sucker” for pain and I woke up being unable, not allowed  to take another. The first day wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. I am suspecting that was because I still had residuals left in my system.  By the end of the first night, I started feeling pretty ill. The second day was wasn’t so bad and the 3,4th, and 5th days were the worst.  I can tell you that it feels like the very worst flu that I’ve ever had. It includes: vomiting, diarrhea, chills, awful sweats and all I wanted to do was lay on my couch, bed or “Lazy Boy” chair. I am sometimes hungry, but when I eat, my stomach hurts. I feel bloated and nothing sounds good to eat and even drinking doesn’t sound good. I used to love my hot tea, my coffee and diet pepsi and none of that even sounds good to me now.  Nothing is the same and now it’s been 3 weeks!

We called the Dr. about 5 days into this and told him how awful I’d been feeling. I did a lot of research, went onto forums for withdrawals and such. I found out that there are a few different meds that can help through the hardest days at the beginning especially. The first one is a blood pressure medication called “Catapres” also called “Clonodine”. There is an anti-anxiey /anti-panic attack type of drug called “Klonopin” that can also help with the withdrawal and flu-like symptoms. Then another thing that can help are the medications that are for anxiety, such as: Ativan, Xanax or even Valium. You don’t need to take them for a long time but just long enough to help you through a hard time. If you find yourself in this kind of situation, please research online forums, use “google” to look up information on withdrawals and then check out “You Tube” videos online about withdrawals too!  My Dr. gave me the Catapress and I took it for about 2 weeks and it helped very much with the symptoms of chills, sweats etc. That is driving me crazy! The chills and sweats are getting lesser and less often but the knee dropping fatigue just won’t stop!

So now I’m actually finishing the 3rd week of not taking the one thing that actually worked for my pain.  The Fentanyl Lollipops helped me and though I never should’ve been given the large amount that Dr. Bullach had given me, I felt so much better when I was down and got myself down to the FDA approved amount. I don’t understand  at all why I have to go through the pain of the withdrawals from something that helped my pain the most and did not upset my GI tract. I now remember and cannot believe that I didn’t remember when the pain Dr. asked me “do you have stomach issues? Why are you taking the lollipops in the first place?” I told him that I didn’t have issues with my stomach and due to my MTBI I forget certain things. I remember now that Dr. Bullach had written a “book” for the Insurance company about me and why I needed to take Actiq losenges or lollipops because of the numerous different meds that I tried with horrible GI side effects or allergic reactions. I had forgotten all about that until I started taking Dilauded on a daily basis. It’s ripping up my stomach!

It’s been 3 weeks and I cry often and feel very depressed. I’m not ever very hungry and I’ve not lost any weight! How crazy is that? I feel nauseous and my stomach down in my lower intestines, feels bloated and hurts every time I eat something! Nothing sounds good and nothing much tastes very good. I’m going to the pain Dr. this week and I need to talk to him and tell him everything. But I just really don’t want to try a bunch of other medications that might make my stomach worse or have even worse side effects. The one side effect that I cannot handle is “weight gain”. I already feel much to heavy now and I cannot afford to gain an ounce. I used to have Anorexia since I was about 13 yrs old and I fought in on and off until I was in that car accident . I will only say one thing about the eating disorder, and that happened because of things ….no….”Abuse” that happened in my home growing up. My kidneys and tubules from my kidneys are too small according to the Ultrasound that the Nephrologist did several years ago following my episode of acute renal failure in 1994. I’ve been on SSDI for Chronic Kidney Disease Stage II and Complex PTSD. To make a very long story, very very short, my heart and my kidneys have medical issues due to me being starved and poisoned with syrup of Ipecac during my childhood. I have seen my pediatrician records, shot records etc.; my dad gave them to me after my mom died and I don’t think he knew what they said!  They are written all over by the pediatrician. It says “Feed this baby”!  “This baby is Anemic! Give her Iron”….then the Dr. wrote some instructions with names of baby foods and formulas with iron etc. So ….lastly, regarding this subject, I do have stomach issues and when I was terribly Anemic in 1999, 2000, 2001; I had 3 blood transfusions!!! They didn’t work and the Hemoglobin was at 8. when I had the last one! So I visited a Hematologist and he gave me an IV infusion of something that helped and my Anemia has been much better since 2002!!!

Since that awful car accident on 8-11-02, and all of the chronic intractable pain, the surgeries and the horrible pain following the surgeries; I just didn’t care anymore about how much I weighed. The numbers didn’t matter any longer! I needed to eat to help myself feel less pain, take medications to help with the ongoing pain following that accident.!!! I slowly started gaining weight as at the time of the MVA, I only weighed about 90 pounds and I am 5’5” tall! Slowly I allowed myself the nourishment to “fix” or help “fix” my pained and broken body. I’ve gotten up to about 145 lbs now and to me, that is too much. For a long time I didn’t weigh myself because as long as I could wear a size 6, I felt OK with myself. I can still wear a “misses” size 6 in relaxed jeans but I feel very big now because I need to use a cane, a wheelchair at times and even a walker. I don’t exercise because I get out of breath and in too much pain and am unable to do much of anything. The CRPS started in 2007 in my right foot following a surgery. It spread to both feet and my knees as well. Now it is full body  “systemic” and I cannot even walk more than just a few minutes, like 20 minutes I suppose. Some days a little more and other days a little less. I’m trying not to worry about that, the “numbers” game, but it’s really scaring me because for the past 3 weeks now, I’ve had a very hard time eating anything much at all and I have not lost but 3 pounds. My Lymphedema in my left arm from the CRPS on my whole left side internally, doesn’t help with that because I get a lot of edema! My feet, legs and arms swell. I’m pretty much miserable!

I didn’t mean to go there. I wasn’t planning on talking about the Anorexia. But I am proud of myself for a few reasons. I have cured myself of the Anorexia (although I will always have the food fears and I will always have the distorted body image and thoughts that go with it all. But I will not ever be acting on those fears and thoughts again, for life and death reasons because I love my husband, kids and grandkids much more than I care about those numbers! I always did but I felt too “out of control” and controlled by my fears of food way back when!

Ok…..so back to these past few weeks…..this has been the hardest or one of the top few hardest things that I’ve ever done. I asked the Dr. who took over for Dr. Bullach,(**and got me through by prescribing lower and lower doses of the meds that would’ve and could’ve killed me if he had not done that for me) if he was “proud of me” for stopping the Fentanyl lollipops?  I asked him also if he liked the letter that I wrote to him, Dr. Bullach and Dr. Dobritt, the old pain Dr.?  He smiled and said that his Office employees were impressed and he left it at that. I could see it in his face and his eyes. His demeanor was very different this past visit, with my being off of that prescription now  and him not having to write it for me any longer. He is relieved and I do feel that he is very happy for me and proud of me. That shouldn’t really matter to me but it does make me feel good that I did and am doing and have done something very very difficult that even some of the strongest willed people might not have been able to do!! But I’ve done it and i’m doing it!!

After having said all that I’ve said, now I’d like to really say that I’ve been going through “HELL” this past 3 weeks. I don’t want to live like this with my stomach feeling all ripped up. My headaches and neck aches, which are in the back of my head and neck, most likely from the “Chiari I malformation”, have been a daily occurrence and they aren’t going away! I was off of  my Ativan for a year and now I’m back on that several time daily to help with the Dilauded side effects.  I could take the Dilauded when it was just an “emergency” medication that I used to keep out of the E.R. or it was used following surgeries. You must remember that I also had my “suckers” at that or during those times as well. My husband has had to set his alarm for 6:00 am each morning to get up and get me a Dilauded and an Ativan , just so that I am able to get out of bed an hour or two later! I used to take a Fentanyl Lollipop which was waiting in my bedside table drawer. I could open it, take it and lay in bed for about 1/2 hour and then I was able to get up. Now I have to plan it like a 2 hour ordeal. If we forget then we or I cannot even get out of bed. I do have GI issues obviously from all that my stomach has been through. Im actually surprised its not worse. I do have to have Colonoscopies every 5 years also, because of my mom’s death from colon cancer in Dec 2002. For some reason, the lollipops don’t upset my stomach or bother me in any way. I have had no side effects! I’ve honestly tried so many other pain meds that all had terrible side effects and worse! I don’t think I’ll be able to go back on the lollipops now! I’m not sure I would if I could, now that I’ve gone through the withdrawals and illness that goes with that.!! I honestly don’t know what to ask for or try? I did have something called Kadian (*extended slow release Morphine) that worked for a few or 2 years and suddenly stopped working for me. I also have something called “LONG QT syndrome”, which affects my heart and there are hundreds of meds that I cannot have due to this condition, that has only one symptom; which is “sudden cardiac death”.

Now I’m going to share with you, some research that I got from some of the websites that are the companies that make these Fentanyl lollipops called “Actiq”. I also want to share that many people have lost and do lose their teeth because of these lollipops with 8 grams of sugar in each one. The way that you get the medication to work is by placing the lollipop between my gum and my cheek. You have to pretty much keep it there twirling it loosly for 15 minutes in order to get the appropriate amount of medication. My Dentist was wonderful and thought ahead for my safety and comfort. He made special trays that molded to my teeth. I then put a flouride paste into these trays, put them into my mouth, covering all of my teeth for about 5 minutes several times per week! I had only one or two cavities since 2005, when I actually started the suckers. They were very old and needed new fillings. I tried hard to take every precaution.

I honestly don’t see why I had to have something taken from me that I was being very responsible with and doing very well with while taking them??? I only always followed my physician’s rules and advice! These past 3 years I had asked him several times if he would “help me go down off of them and take less”. He always told me that “Suzanne, I got you out of that hospital bed in the living room! I got you to be able to get up, go out sometimes and have a bit more of a life!” He was right, so I stopped bothering him. He told me to “trust him” and so I did. Here are a few of the things that I found on the website for the Fentanyl “Actiq” Lolllipops for BT pain:   “Actiq achieved off-label status as a powerful pain reliever (80-100 times more potent than morphine) and is used to treat migraine headaches, severe back pain, cluster headaches, bone pain, arthritis, neuropathies, and other situations of severe chronic non-cancer pain.”  Also, I read that “It can legally be prescribed for off-label used but cannot be marked as such.  As much as 80% of the prescriptions for Actiq each year are written for off-label use for sufferers of NON-CANCER,Chronic pain.  Soooo, then ….if I was doing so much better and had a much more happy existence with less pain because no stomach issues and honestly …less pain!!??? Why , then??? Why can I not have my life back? Its not any more dangerous it just cannot be! I don’t  understand because Fentanyl is Fentanyl and how is less of that any better for me, than Dillauded ripping up my stomach whilst my head and neck,…..arms, legs and feet feel “on Fire” along with burning nerve pain! I’m so fatigued, that I can only do something for about one hour maybe two and I’m down for the count! The rest of the day is in bed or in my “Lazy Boy” chair or on the couch!…

Well, I’ll give Dr Bullach that one…he got me “out of that hospital bed in the living room and out doing more stuff” while in the meantime giving me much too much medication …..like I have said before, I’m a lay person and I had no idea !! I wish I’d never taken any of it….I ‘ve never smoked, drank nor have I ever done any drug of any kind…At first, after the car accident, when I went to my 1st pain Dr  for 3 yrs…they’d get upset with me because I wasn’t taking the amount prescribed but was taking LESS….I cannot win….I never have taken more than prescribed either….well, we will see what happens huh? I’ll keep you posted…I have another pain Dr. appt this week on the 6th….Thank you for following ….and we will be on to a new subject very soon…If you want to read back on any of my old posts…one of the pretty good ones is “Illness Doesn’t Equal Lack of Faith”…..it’s a good one if I do say so myself….check it out if you wish….I’ll be writing soon again…not so long this time…My youngest daughter is moving with her hubby to Boise Idaho this week…give me strength. This is going to be so very hard…I miss her already….UGGH Why does life have to be this hard??? lots of love, Suzanne

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Day #2 Withdrawals from Fentanyl Lollipops


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Well my friends, today is the end of the 2nd full day of my withdrawals from the major doses of Fentanyl Lollipops that my old GP had me on for the past 10, 11 years now. Yes….I do have many high pain issues but he should not have done this to me. Nothing I can do now, I cannot whine or complain because I must get to the business of getting off of these totally and never going back. But I cannot say that I’m not afraid. The suckers are so far the only thing that have worked for my horrible pain! Everything else either makes me really sick with awful side effects and nausea or it doesn’t seem to work well for me.  Today I’ve felt a little bit less of the “wanting” for the suckers. I have felt chills and I have also felt as though I am going to burn on fire until I am just ashes on the floor. I feel so hot …..no..you just don’t understand….I feel so hot and I sweat and I’ve had this feeling all through my RSD/CRPS too, but this is even more powerful. It wakes me up at night and I’m soaking wet and I just wanna “die”. No …,not really. …I don’t want to leave this world or die…it’s more of a “feeling” when that happens that I just need for it to end right then and I cannot take it for another moment.

Today, I had to go to my GP…it’s only my 2nd time seeing him. I am unsure about him. The other one, my old one..he did take over when his partner left after 12 years. He did get me the meds that I needed to keep me from being so deathly ill or dying. I think that he thinks the only reason I went to him was for the suckers. Well, he used to be my full time GP and I started seeing his “new” partner 12 years ago  because he was so “nice” to me and kind when I was hospitalized for pain control. I had been a  patient at first of the Dr. who has taken over since my GP of 12 yrs left abruptly after over medicating many of his patients including me . **My former Dr/GP went to an urgent care in Jackson Michigan called Med express. He cannot write controlled substances anymore because the FEDS came into their office and he was found to be over medicating people. Unfortunately, I am one of them. I have been a trooper, motivated and trying with all of my might to get lower and lower doses of the pain suckers since January 2015. I got down 80% and now since Sunday night going to bed with one in my mouth, I’ve had ZERO….NADA….NONE!!! I’m now in my 2nd full day and at the end of it actually.

I was a patient there actually since 1986 and the Dr. who has taken over my care, WAS and had been my GP since that time and until I asked the “new Dr” to be my GP when I was hospitalized in 2002 following a MVA. I only stopped seeing the first Dr. because of my parents, who had been horribly abusive on many levels while growing up and even as I was an adult and I confided in him. He helped me to get my SSDI and he believed in me. Until one day 10 years later, my parents walked into his office and started becoming his patients. Instead of him telling them that it was a breech of some kind or unethical or something, he came to my patient room and told me “wow your parents are now my patients too! They seem like nice people and they say that they’ve done none of the things you alleged that they’ve done!! You seem like a nice person too and now I don’t know who to believe”??? Well, that was enough then and there I got up and left that practice. I tried a few other Dr’s but didn’t really like any of them. Then after the car accident I got scared because I knew so much was wrong and I had so much pain issues. I needed to go back where my records were and where someone knew me and my history. I told him what I thought about what he said and did and then the new dr arrived on the scene and to make matters easier for everyone, I started seeing him, Dr. Pete Bullach Jr MD.

Well, he helped me and told me that he would “be the eye in the middle of my storm”. I wouldn’t allow anyone else to prescribe meds for me. We tried many different pain meds and they all made me ill, sick, and left with my pain. They didn’t work for me and 99% gave me very bad stomach issues including pain and cramps. I finally found the suckers and they worked for me. They worked for 10 years for me. I did suffer from a heart attack shortly after starting them and then one year later I suffered a CVA. Who knows if the suckers were the culprit or if it was the TBI or any other number of reasons? But I’ve since read that the Fentanyl lollipops long term, can cause such problems with health. The pain Dr. I have now and who I’ve only seen one time so far and will see again at the beginning of August, he says that they are for “end of life” and they are “very dangerous”. I don’t understand the dangerousness of them though? Why am I able to stay on the Fentanyl patch and take Dilauded but these are not dangerous?? I guess I just don’t understand. I am just blindly doing what I have to do because either way I need to get off of some of these things because I absolutely HATE feeling “married” to these pain meds and the men with the power to write them for me.  The Government thinks they know what pain patients need and they think they know which kinds of pain are worse than other kinds of pain. Who are they or anyone to say that One pain illness is more painful that my very painful pain diseases called “COMPLEX REGIONAL PAIN SYNDROME” or “CRPS aka RSD”…??? I will never understand but I don’t care. I am strong and have always been strong. I don’t like the feelings of withdrawals and as of day #2, today, I don’t crave the “sucker” part so much. But in waves I feel terrible and in pain and tired, exhausted and sick. I don’t know what will happen but I pray that this new pain Dr will be good to me and keep on believing in me …

I dont know if I have shown you the letter that I have written to the : Dr who took over for my old doc who got into trouble, to my old GP who is at the Urgent care now and the same letter was sent out to the pain Dr who took good care of me and I was a good patient of his from 2002-2005, but when I went back for help at the beginning of this ordeal on January 2nd, 2015, he refused to help me or see me unless he could pass me off to a “friend of his” to be “screened” first by him  because he must not trust his own judgement? I’ve sent them all a letter and I would love to share that letter with you. Below please see a copy of it. I do praise the one doc for helping to take over me and help me through this even though I’ve heard that there are and have been very very many that he just totally “threw overboard” and “let go” and gave them a script and sent them on their way and told them “not to come back”. These were legitimate pain patients because I knew or know a couple of them. I feel or felt the need to get out what I needed to say. I truly am thankful for the one Dr/GP for helping me to go down 80% off of the suckers. But I had no choice in the matter. I was and am at the mercy of all of these people and I absolutely hate it. With my background of abuse and PTSD, it pains me to have someone else in charge of me and my care. I can only hope that the new Dr will continue to believe in me and care for me in a kind and caring way and never give up on me.

So here I sit at the end of day #2 and I’m feeling very very ill, hot and burning up as if to be on fire!  I feel cramps and runny nose and eyes and cannot eat much or hold in anything much. I’ve been trying to to drink but when I have hot drink, I burn up and when I have cold drink, I feel freezing cold. Everything is screwed up and I feel like I am unable to concentrate on anything. I am vlogging this experience on YOU TUBE also. So far they are “private” and if you want to watch them, please email me : suzannebstewart@aol.com and I will put you allowed to watch the videos. There are 2 so far and they are dark and made at night, very late when I’ve been feeling my very worst.  Thank you for your interest and I hope one day that this account of my days going through this ordeal, will help someone.  Also, things that help with the fire or “on fire” feeling are : cold paks that are in the fridge, around my neck and cold drinks. When I’m hot I try wearing light clothing and drink more cold drinks as I’ve said and I’ve been sitting stilll, quite still. I’m having a hard time with concentration too. Please check out the letter that I’ve sent out to all 3 Dr’s, below…..thank you again, Suzanne

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The Letter:

July 13,2015
Dear Dr’s Brateman, Bullach and Dobritt;
I am writing one letter in the same, to all three of you. First of all, to save myself the work of trying to say many of the same things to all 3 of you. Also, this way you’ll be able to better understand how I felt about the breakdown of our patient/Dr. relationships.
First of all, I want to say “thank you ” to Dr. Brateman, for allowing me to stay on as a patient and help me reduce my pain medications. Between Jan 1st and July 13, 2015, I brought myself down to Zero, from the huge amount of Fentanyl prescribed for me (by Dr. Bullach). Dr. Brateman was the only physician who had the guts to stick by me. I’m a chronic pain patient with quite a list of real and horrible pain issues, including Systemic “CRPS!
I have been through a lot in my life, but this has got to be right up on top with the worst treatment of a human being that I’ve personally felt. I’m astounded and ashamed at the treatment I’ve received from Dr Bullach , who told me for 12 years to “trust him” only to be betrayed and left to suffer on my own, if not for Dr. Brateman.
Next, I went to my scheduled appointment on Jan 2, 2015 with Dr. Dobritt. He informed me that he “never received a letter, records or a phone call from Dr. Bullach regarding my case”. Another deception by Dr Bullach. During that same appointment, Dr Dobritt initially indicated that he supported the treatment regimen that Dr. Bullach had me on. But then he “back peddled” and referred me to another pain Dr. I told him that I didn’t wish to see another Dr. I’ve already seen multiple specialists as a result of a MVA in 2002. He’d been my pain Dr. for 3 years following that MVA and I had trusted him.
I went back to Dr. Dobritt in April 2015, after I had gotten myself down 80% from the Fentanyl prescribed originally by Dr. Bullach. I thought he would be proud of me. Imagine my shock & dismay when I arrived and Dr Dobritt refused to see me. He sent a clerk to tell me that he would not see me because I had not gone to be screened by the other pain Dr. prior to this appointment. I cried and begged for him to help me. I was afraid and felt alone in my physical pain and feelings of betrayal and mistrust with the medical professionals who are bound to “first do no harm” according to their own creed. I felt betrayed by his obvious attempt to pass me off to another Dr. instead of helping me.
Because of my own tenacity, I have since found a caring pain Dr. who has helped me get completely off of my former regimen of pain meds. He was equally appalled at the way I had been treated by physicians that I had trusted. Dr. Bullach, your actions; and Dr. Dobritt, your inaction, put my health and possibly my life at risk. You should both be ashamed at the way you treated me and you left Dr. Brateman to clean up your mess. I hope that the two of you do some soul searching and NEVER treat another human being the same way that you have treated me.
With deep sadness, Suzanne Stewart

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