From The Mouth of A Fur Baby


Hello all,
Hey to all of my furriends here on Catster…sorry I’ve not been around so much lately. Mommy is still not doing so well since February when she had the heart surgery…she’s just tired alot and not feeling so great. She’s a good mommy and she tries hard to be everything I need and want …but I just want to be me with my own personality and my own quirks. When mommy and daddy got me they actually got me because their daughter who is 25 has her own apartment and another kitty named “Sutton”. They all love Sutton, she is “fixed” and she is a good kitty and mommy’s daughter thought that she’d get another kitty (me) to keep Sutton company . But when I went there after the foster home, I didnt’ like it so much. I was stuck in the bathroom for a few days and I felt lonely and worried about what was going on for me in life. I was let out of the bathroom for times and then Sutton would be put in the laundry room for awhile while I sniffed out the place and played awhile…then we went back to our own spaces again…just until we could get used to each other. But Sut-Sut never got used to me and started worrying , not grooming, not eating and whenever we got put together to try and be introduced; we both got upset and started clawing at eachother and hissing…
We did not like each other and it just was not gonna work and mommy’s daughter was going to have to take me back to my foster mom’s home. But my mommy intervened and she told her daughter to bring me to her house and they would take me as they fur baby and be my family. I was really cute and I didnt want to be alone in a room downstairs that first night and I jumped up the basement stairs and over the 1/2 door and into the living room! I made a big sound and they wondered what happened!! I made them so surprised and they were laughing so hard and I was instantly allowed upstairs with them and trusted.
OK…so you all know my trials and stories and eveything we’ve been through together, right? You know how my mommy used to say that she had hoped that I would be “cuddly” and everyone said to give me time? Mommy had hoped for company and love and companionship. She is in pain all of the time with a nerve disease and doesn’t feel too good and she just wanted something to love and be loved. (*On a side note mommy has an abusive family and she has to stay away from them to be safe…she also lost her oldest daughter 9 yrs ago )…. She feels like she could use some unconditional love like the love only fur babies can give…but not me…so far I’m not capable of this. Mommy knows that kitties are sometimes loners or we want things our own way….You know my mommy loves me and you can see by all the pictures she takes of me that I’m so important in their lives. I’m so smart and cute and funny…but mommy is sad because I never want anything except to sleep and play (playing is harder for her but she’s a good sport and still plays with me a lot). I’m funny to watch but I’m not any company really. You see….Mommy & Daddy.. they both are allergic and think that having 2 cats would be “pushing it. Mommy and daddy’s allergies are in check just by taking a pill daily so thats good and with me, they are doing OK with it and that is wonderful. But two kitty’s might be pushing it a bit much and mommy’s has asthma as well (which is also doing good at the moment).
Mommy keeps saying that in time things will be better, that I’ll get used to everything, that I’ll be better, less skittish etc. Daddys starting to get upset because mommy is sad quite often about the whole thing. Daddy keeps saying that they should let the foster mommy come back and bring me to her house because she said I could come back to her house any time forever. Mommy loves me so much and daddy does as well, but the only thing that they do is clean out my litter box and feed me and play with me. I won’t let mommy (or anyone) hold me, I won’t sit with her, I won’t sit next to her, I won’t sleep with her, she cannot hold me! I stay in one room of the house most of the time and they are always in the TV room. I used to sleep with mommy but haven’t in about a month and now I sleep up on the mantle over the fireplace or I also sleep in the rocking chair in the room upstairs, the spare room. You see, right now its Sat. night…daddy and mommy are watching TV and playing on their Ipads…I’m upstairs by myself in the computer room in a chair. I used to greet them in the morning if there was a night that went by and I didnt want to sleep next to mommy. I would at least be head butting and meowing and happy to see them and get them up. Now I just keep going backwards 5 steps and forward one step!!
I won’t drink water from my bowl…not any bowl…only from the faucet….I want mommy to pet me while i eat or sometimes i wont eat…the only thing that I do that shows any kind of affection whatsoever, is sometimes I’ ll fall down onto my side like “plop” and want to be petted…but only for a few moments or then I start swiping my claws at them. I don’t get excited to see them or even get up off of my perch when either of them come home….Mommy’s friends who are in a support group for pain patients, they have kitties and their kitties lay down in the bed with them for the most part when they don’t feel good throughout the day. I don’t care if mommy doesn’t feel good and I stay in another room ….
Mommy and daddy are so sad …especially mommy. She /they know that animals are not “disposable” creatures that can be “traded” as the cat behaviorist has suggested when mommy talked to one at the humane society where I used to live. She said that if mommy isn’t happy and it’s been so long, about 8 /9 months now and I’m just not that “into them”..that they should take me back to my foster mommy who doesn’t mind taking me back at all! She told them that they could for sure find mommy a loveable lap cat that would possibly fit in at this house and with this family since I don’t really seem to do anything here except keep to myself and I like it that way. Mommy is afraid to hurt my feelings or afraid to do anything except just keep me here with them, with her. She said they should try a dog or another cat and just let me be who I am and leave it at that…but daddy says that thats not an option…..because of his allergies being worse, he only wants one animal and he has to do the laundry, housework, and lawn work and everything pretty much …already…Because mommy has several health issues its alot on his shoulders. He is a full time teacher and has been for 36 years as well….it’s just hard and they know they could do it and welcome it and not mind at all…but they just want me to give some kind of sign of love and affection. I mean, I hate seeing mommy unhappy because of me….she is sad quite often and she has enough to be sad about daddy says, without me being a part of it. I was supposed to be part of the family and their lives and love and be loved…it’s hard because I’m not like that and I’ve been here 9 mos almost.
Lastly, you know…mommy and daddy had they picked out their own family fur baby, they’d have chosen one with a history of being loving and a lap cat and such…but their daughter brought me home and that didnt’ work out with her kitty and me. We didnt like each other at all. Remember, she was going to take me right back after a week, to the foster mommy…but my mommy now didnt want that to happen and she said they would try to take me and see how it goes….it’s been all this time and I’m getting more and more apart from them/her and instead of closer…..any suggestions will be so hoped for… but mommy cannot handle anymore hurtfulness because there are so many abusers in her life that she’s trying hard to keep at bay…thank you all for being warm, caring and understanding…..love, Luna …purrrssss20130922-002207.jpg20130922-002224.jpg

Life with A New Pacemaker & A New “family Member” To Love!!


Amy and Sutton!

 

 

Hello all,

I recently had a surgery in February. I got a brand new pacemaker and it came with a “home monitoring system”. I also got a new Cat in January! Hmm…which one should I tell you about first?

Ok..first off…my youngest daughter got a kitty cat whose name is now “Sutton” and she got her from the Humane Society! She rescued Sutton, a beautiful black, elegant, cute and sweet kitty cat! “Sutty-buddy” is such a sweetheart, she sits on my lap for a whole hour when I go over to visit my daughter. I fell in love with Sutton and now she’s my “grand-kitty”. She’s so cute that she will howl while sitting on the “bar” counter-top at Amy’s apartment. I’m not sure what she’s howling at; but it seems that she likes the clear string of lights across the bar and maybe she wants to just make noise? It really does sound like howling at the moon!! LOL…Now…Sutton doesn’t like to “play” much. If you put a string toy out at her, she may bat at it once or twice but mostly she just sits down like a lump!

Well since my daughter is gone quite often…with working full time and having a great boyfriend, “Grant”. In fact, they just celebrated their one year anniversary of their first date! She has many friends and goes to parties, the casino’s,out to dinner, dancing and so many other fun things! She’s a busy busy young woman. So she felt that Sutton needed a friend and she went to rescue another kitty Cat. That is when she brought home her new white Cat, who she named “Morgan La Fae” (from shakespeare). Morgan is 2 1/2 years old and Sutton is 4 years old. They are both spayed females, but they did NOT like each other at all! After five days staying in Amy’s bathroom, for the most part; switching “on” and “off” with Sutton for Amy’s attention when she was home; and quite a bit of “hissing’ and “growling”; Amy decided that she would have to give up the idea of Sutton having a friend. Sutton is quite happy being the top Cat in Amy’s heart, I’m afraid.

All of these years, both my husband and I have been allergic to Cats and though we‘ve thought about getting a dog…we just haven’t done it yet. I wanted a pet, but after losing my dog, “Kato” after just under a year old, being my BFF and my little “soul-mate”..it was just too hard to try with the chance of that happening again. My heart has been hurt enough and I just couldn’t do it yet..and then still…and then still yet…I never got one. We never got one. But when Amy was going to have to take “Morgan La Fae” back to the rescue shelter to save Sutton from a “bad life”; we decided to give it a try first! We thought it would be a “no-risk” way to try having a Cat. We thought we could try having her in our house and see how Craigs’ allergies did and mine also. We didn’t have to lose any money or our hearts, it would just be a quick few days to see what would happen.

Well, our allergies did happen. We have started taking our allergy meds on a daily basis, but it’s not so bad! We had this beautiful and quite skiddish and sweet all white kitty Cat with emerald green eyes. She has eyes to which one can see through to her soul. She was neglected and possibly abused. She was taken with her kittens from a “hoarder’s house. The people who she lived with before the foster mother, are now in jail and our newly named Cat, “Luna Skye”, has captured our hearts forever!

Luna and I are kindred spirits! We have both had a rough life and people didn’t like to feed us! She is 2 1/2 years old and will NOT eat any kind of treats. She loves to play, likes to be a bit affectionate a bit now and then and she is as cute as a “button”! It’s sad because she slept a few nights with me in our bed, but then when I got home from my surgery, my pacemaker replacement and rebuilding of my pectoral muscle, surgery; she stopped sleeping with me in the bed. We’ve just figured out that it may be the “home monitoring system” that came with this new kind of pacemaker. It tracks every beat of my heart 24/7 and if something is wrong, then a yellow light comes on and we have 3 days to call our Dr. If a red light comes on, then we have to call the Dr. right away. But after researching and coming up with nothing, I decided to write to the Pacemaker Company and to the Pacemaker club online. I asked everyone several questions about the possiblity of this “home station” in our bedroom making some kind of high pitched noise that people cannot hear but the Cat can, possibly hear? I’m still waiting for a response. But in the meantime, we’ve moved the monitor into our spare bedroom, but now I have to go into that room for awhile each day to let it send my heart rythms to the Dr. …although I’m not sure how long I’m supposed to sit there? I guess we’ll start with 30 minutes and find out from the Company?

You see…this monitor sends every heart rythm and every heartbeat good, bad or otherwise through the Cell phone towers and it’s encrypted to the internet. Then a report goes to the Dr. and he looks at the “trending” of my heart and how it is beating on a daily basis. If and/or when something is wrong they’ll let me know. I sure hope that they will let me know how this monitor is working and if it is “Hurting” my kitty Cat’s ears…or scaring and keeping her out of our bedroom.

So..now it’s 4 weeks and I/we have a real live animal in our home! I love her so much and I hope she will become more open to our loving her and maybe one day she’ll even jump up in my lap! I read something on a Cat “board” online, that this guy had a rescued Cat and it wouldn’t be very loving towards him but he still wanted her and loved her. So he just kept on trying and one day after a whole year went by, she jumped up on his lap and it was love at first lap! LOL…..

I know that Luna and I will be forever friends and I hope this pacemaker works well and that I get to live a long life with my soul-mate husband and my beautiful daughter….I also hope that one day I’ll be able to say that I’m living life with both of my beautiful daughters.

You know…I do have some good friends and some of them are like true family to me and to us. Our friends in Scotland, for example..they are such kind and loving, giving people. I talk to them whenever I want because of technology. It feels like they’re right around the corner and then there’s a few other girl friends that I’ve had for many years and they mean alot to me, too. It felt so good to get about 75 cards or so from my fellow “chemo-angels”; all wishing me good luck on my surgery and telling me to “feel well soon”. I got a “Hello Kitty” fruit basket with a H.K. balloon too, from one of my friends who I consider a “sister” in my life; just as my friend in Scotland, is a “sister” to me. She called me every day on “whatsapp” (an app for the Iphone which makes it easy for us to “talk” each day or whenever we wish)…and then there’s my dear friend who is a Pharmacist, and a mom and a wife and a great friend who’s been like a “sister” to me also. She spreads herself so thin, I don’t know how she does it? She even stuck up for me one time when one of my oldest daughters‘ friends was “bullying” me at the mall. No one’s ever stuck up for me before…except for my oldest brother…he used to stick up for me, and protect me when he could.

I guess he can’t now…because he sees things differently than I do…or he chooses NOT to see things the way they truly are and were. But maybe he needs to do that in order to survive in this world. Funny, he seems like the one with “it” all together. He’s a Pharmacist and has his Masters degree and he’s written many articles for Universities. He’s really smart and he works for a Drug company. He travels around the USA and even has gotten to visit Hawaii! He didn’t enjoy it there he told me! There’s another way we see things differently. If I had the great opportunity to visit a beautiful place like Hawaii, I would relish the beauty and see all that I could see. I would do all that I could do and never sit in a hotel room and complain about the humid weather!

He cannot enjoy things because he never has allowed himself to see or feel or experience life in a true way. He lives in a different world of his own making, not his own experiences. But it’s because of his experiences, that he isn’t “free” to be more open to the beauty in the world. Yes, I’ve been through much turmoil, abuse, hurt and the like. But I’ve learned that although I can be hurt by being the “truth bearer”; I also can experience the good things if I allow myself to do so. Rather than worry about cat hair in my house or a little bit of a mess on the floor from a cat bed being out in the living room; I can experience this new life in my home and love this little critter until I can’t love her any more than I do!

I will share a few pictures of Sutton and Luna with you before you go. I hope you enjoy them as much as I’ve enjoyed spending the time with them and taking the pictures! Bye for now…and…..

…….” Small minds cannot comprehend Big spirits. To be great, you have to be willing to bemocked, hated and misunderstood…STAY STRONG!”……………. Anonymous

Luna

 

Luna

 

Sutton just loves all of those balloons..Can you tell? LOL

 

All You Need Is Love …AND a “Fur Baby”


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Hello Luvs,

Well, after years of contemplating getting an animal to fill our home with the essence of another life and more love and joy etc….We got ourselves a Cat! Now…of course, “she” doesn’t think she is a “cat”! She has brought so much more joy, love, life and fun into our home …more than I could have ever imagined! We‘ve had “Luna” for about a month now. She is a rescued, 2 1/2 year old pure white domestic short hair female Cat, with the most beautiful emerald green eyes you’ve ever seen! She “talks”with her eyes and she “Meeps” with her voice! Really….when she wants my attention, she says “Meep”….”Meep”…it’s so cute.

She is the essence of elegance and cleanliness in a feline! She is so purely white and so full of personality! She loves to play like a kitten! As soon as one of us picks up her favorite toy (a rod with a string on it and at the end of a string is a feathery/mousey thing), she starts acting like what I call “the crouching tiger”….she jumps and jaunts and hops up and down! She does her “morning calesthenics” by running and jumping through the stairways of the 2 story house that we live in together. She’ll stare at the upper stairs, crouch down and JUMP up, running up and down and up and down! It’s really hysterical to watch! She makes me laugh! She sits on the top of my large jewelry box and looks out of my window patiently until I want to get up in the mornings! Sometimes, if I’m not quick enough for her, in getting up in the mornings, she’ll come down and lay by my side and purr like an large engine or something of that sort. She will lay there and purr and let me pet her and she even “pets me”! Yes…she will lick my hand or rub her face on my hand to get me to pet her there or more! She even comes up to my face and puts her cute little pink, wet nose on my nose and I just swear it’s like she’s giving me a little “kiss”.

Lu-Lu, or Luna….or Luna Tuna…or Luna-“tic”, as my husband likes to call her…is or has become a great joy in our life of dealing with my chronic pain, loss, health issues and PTSD. I truly believe in the idea that animals can lower our blood pressure or give us a healthier life or at least a more positive outlook on our life, if it is difficult. I recently, had heart surgery and was worried because she’s still pretty “new” to us and how she may react towards me. I didn’t want her to “hurt” me by accident or something. She’s just been her loveable yet, soft and elegant self! She’s definitely NOT a “needy” cat either! She likes to sleep and run around by herself with her “ball” or her little “mouse toy”. She adores basking in the sun of the big glass sliding door and jump up on the box seat cushion of the bay window and watch the rain droplets, snowflakes or tiny creatures hopping about.

I’m so glad that I waited for the right animal. I didn’t jump into anything. My friends have teased me for years because I always said that I wanted an animal, but never actually could get one that we could keep, or that worked out with our family living style. I had a dog once, that I loved so much. His name was “Kato” and he was my BFF! I loved that dog like a baby! In fact, I carried him around in a little winter knit hat, when he was a baby! He ran to the door to greet me and he loved me like I loved him. Until the day came at less that one year old, when he had to be “put down” because of the pain of a joint disease. I was mortified and something “died” inside of me that day! I had to do it alone..I mean…take him and leave him there. I cried for 3 days straight…in my bed! It was so sad, that I just never felt like I wanted to go through that loss again. I think that is what held me back for so many years. That, and the fact that I had 2 kids in the house and sometimes many more than that, when friends and my stepkids came over! We had alot of excitement and movement and things to do every day. We were a busy family! Then one by one, the children grew up and left and the house felt “empty”.

I was sad for awhile, but now I’m learning to embrace my new life with my husband of 16 years! We never had that time to ourselves “before kids”, because we both had 2 kids when we met, though his were much older! We didn’t have that “honeymoon” period and now with me having Chronic Pain, RSD/CRPS and heart issues such as a pacemaker/Atrial fibrillation/Sick Sinus Syndrome/Long QT/ and having Dysautonomia/POTS/NCS and more…it just seems like we always had too much going on to settle down and just “be”!

So now I’m not so sad….I still miss my kids at home. We see our youngest much of the time and she is our little “mothering daughter”. She worries and dotes and gives so much love to us! She got a cat who is 4 years old, and her name is “Sutton”. Sutton is totally black with big round green eyes and she is Miss Personality of her own!

Sutton “talks” in her own language by a slight growling sound and she “howls” at the cieling near the kitchen counter for some reason? Sutton sits on my lap for an hour at a time when I’m over at my daughters house! I just love that Cat! She lets you do whatever you wish, pretty much…within limits of course! She let my daughter put a “Santa hat” on her at Christmas time and take pictures of her that way! She lets my daughter kiss her forehead and take a picture of it until it is “just right!

Luna, on the other hand is a bit persnickity and would never let me put anything on her head! She doesn’t like to be picked up except when she’s very very tired and until she realizes it and then she jumps down! So far, she doesn’t like to sit on anyone’s lap or be too snuggly with anyone for long. But she loves me and I love her. I love the wet nose kisses and the pushing of her head into my hands and I can feel the love she has for me.

My husband was never a “cat” person. He was very allergic and still is, really! Luna has won him over and he takes an allergy pill each day, just like I do (and I do an inhaler too!). It’s just so “worth it” to do this little inconvenience to have so much fun and joy and love in our home! It’s so great to have a warm body there with me when nobody else is home, too. We wipe her weekly with these “pet bath wipes” to get about 85% of the allergens off of her; and it seems to be helping quite a bit! That and brushing her daily, helps with the hair and the dander in the air! I love also to give her her “nummy nums” and watch her get so excited and pace back and forth between my legs until I put the soft food down for her! She will NOT eat any treats! I’ve tried six different kinds! She took tuna from my hand the other day and she’ll eat soft food like crazy. She eats her regular hard food daily, too.

The life she had before she came to us must have been horrible for her. They said that she was in a “hoarder’s house”. There was litigation going on for months so she was put into “foster care” for 6 months time. Those people went to jail for neglecting their many animals! I don’t know to what extent, but I do know that she has “night terrors”. She cries like a little baby ! It’s the strangest sound, until I get up and go to her and wake her up and she licks me and knows it’s now going to all be O.K.!!

Amy and Sutton

Craig and Luna

our kitty and Us!

Sutton at the “surprise party”…just lovin’ those balloons!
Luna looking out my bedroom window
where she likes to sleep…
Self-explanitory!!
something I never thought I’d see…my Hubby playing with a Cat!! LOL!**OUR CAT!